& my world will be coloured.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Under the shadow of Your wings

After two weeks of feeling crappy...finally found the energy to be happy, to laugh and be merry again....all thanks to Daddy!

Wasn't feeling well the entire week and after the cg prayed for me, it was great!

Looking forward to tomorrow...yet feeling nervous. Lord, let it be good. Let your abundant grace come upon me, your favour cover like a shield and You be magnified =)

allie ♥ 9:23 PM

Sunday, November 16, 2008

What more could you not give...

Yesterday i caught a glimpse of the former self in someone dear to me...it's almost like seeing a mirror image...watching myself go through that journey.

Today, i learnt that that former self has been crucified with Jesus at the cross. It no longer exist today...

The emotional outbursts...the release of pent-up anger and unhappiness...holding onto so many responsibilities, so many self-expectations...the unrealistic expectations of others to read one's thoughts, to know how one is feeling...the crave for attention, for concern, for love...

Sounds familiar? It definitely does to me.

It feels so empty...so lacking...desiring worldly things to fill the heart that cannot fill the void permanently.

As the saying goes...Love can overcome all odds...i believe it applies...though only for the perfect love - the unconditional, underserving love of God that has the power to overcome.

Honestly, i was at such a loss, i completely didn't know what to do. I could have been angry, frustrated, annoyed...but i wasn't. Instead, felt concerned and worried. Though i can't see it happening yet...it will eventually work for my good. The One who has carried the weight of the entire world on His shoulders...what more could He not give...for He shall restore far more, exceedingly abundantly above all we ask or think...

Shalom...

allie ♥ 8:07 PM

Monday, November 03, 2008

Sweet revelations

Our dear teacher Wendy shared something very precious at the end of practice and it spoke to me. She shared that when the incident that used to hurt you no longer sting anymore, this means that healing has been done. Gosh...it's like double confirmation of what i shared with my sisters yesterday...sweet. She also shared that one should strive for the prize in front of you and not look back at what has already been done. Pastor's sermon on sunday was so powerful...brings us back to the foundation - the cross, the finished work. It's so beautiful and seeds are being sown into my heart.

Lord you never fail to surprise me, to amaze me, even when i thought you've done it all and yet more things are being done as i speak. Thank you Lord...for restoring far more than what i've lost before...and in you i've found so much more that can't be found anywhere else in the world.

Here in my life by Hillsong

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me:
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus you’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me:
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still you made a way!

allie ♥ 11:22 PM

Memories are made of these

What are memories made of? I used to think memories are everything that's happened in life and left their footprints in your life...both the good and the bad. However along the way...i realised that memories are left by choice. Making a conscious decision to delete the bad while preserving the good makes memories more worthwhile to keep. And while i'm doing that, God makes sure those memories that i've put away don't return to bound, but instead bring joy to my life.

This is sweet. Daddy's beloved little princess is enjoying her beautiful life...

It's really rare that you get to meet a group of people who aren't afraid to be themselves, letting their hair down and doing crazy things together. These memories...are so precious...

We are going going going...