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| Sunday, July 27, 2008 |
An interesting turn of events where one thing led to another and then beautifully summed up by Prince's message - left a smile on my face. Penned down some of my thoughts on my conversation with stin yesterday...though many other thoughts were left out...those that i told him. Been pondering about why abba Father put special people into our lives, those that touched us, influenced us, make us wonder what it is about them that makes them so attractive, so alluring, so special. Today i got my answer. The string of events that follow that "not-by-chance" encounter with that special person simply justifies the answer. The jigsaw puzzle beautifully fits the pieces in one by one...without me even trying. Everyone has a purpose in life...and some people are put into your life for a purpose. Every person you meet is not by coincidence, but by fate. The picture unravels...and the story is told...a bittersweet one...but a beautiful one nonetheless. Blessed so that others may see His glory through you. Have you ever met someone who's so special, so positive, so influential, so attractive that makes you want to know how he/she became the person he/she is? I have....and thank God for that. |
| allie ♥ 6:57 PM |
| Saturday, July 26, 2008 |
Pastor said the true princess remains calm and collected. Ever seen a princess getting worked up over small things, or try to take over? No, they let others do things for them. Lol...said in an extremely cute way but still kinda make sense...and it stuck with me. Had a nice loooong chat with stin today. Nice catching up with ya buddy! Nice to know about your friend too =). You know, the conversation made me tear a little...cos it touched on many things that are close to my heart...though you might not be aware. I meant what i said, truly glad that my dear friends have come back...every single one that i'm in touch with now. Especially ger...whom i get to go to church with every week...thanks to Him! Oh,i'm glad i got to know about the book too! Went to this Loli shop with Alanna yest...it has soooo many cute stuffies! Would totally get addicted to them if it weren't for the cost. It also happens to be very "me" lol. Well, control control! To the Ends of the Earth by Hillsong Love unfailing Overtaking my heart You take me in Finding peace again Fear is lost in all you are And I would give the world to tell you're story 'Cause I know that you've called me I know that you've called me I've lost myself for good within your promise And I won't hide it I won't hide it Jesus, I believe in You And I would go, to the ends of the earth To the ends of the earth For you alone are the son of God And all the world will see That You are God You are God |
| allie ♥ 9:31 PM |
| Tuesday, July 22, 2008 |
In the last service, Pastor Prince said "Only when you are able to disregard what what others think of you, that's when you can help others". I went back and ponder, wondering if that can be true, though i never found the answer. Today it struck me...it holds some truth after all. Many times i've stepped on other people's toes and received big reactions. I've accepted and learnt. Many times i've stepped on other people's toes and received no reaction. I've accepted and learnt. Many times i have no idea what i've done and received big reactions. I've accepted...and starting to learn... Maybe i've done right, maybe i've done wrong. I dunno. Does it matter? I dunno. Things get thrown at me for all sorts of reasons. My bro who said i'm "pot calling kettle black". Fine...if you say so. Other people who say all sorts of things about me. Fine, if you say so. Today when i heard everything, i simply felt hurt...and tired. Thinking back on what i used to do, i simply defend, defend, defend. What am i defending? Why am i defending? I dunno. I see no cause for that now, no reason to do so. Why does it matter? The scenes kept replaying in my head...tried to push them away but they kept coming back. Thinking about what i've done wrong...and i simply had no answer. I felt i was the same every day, including today. Whatever it is, i accept everything said to me about me. Sometimes, answers don't really matter...how one deals with the matter on hand matters more. No sarcasm intended...just plain honesty, truthfulness, reflections. Tears are shed, heart is broken, but ultimately it'll pass. Pastor Joshua onced asked "why fight flesh with flesh?" Somehow it made total sense. I'm probably not making sense in this post...just needed to let out the feelings cooped inside me. Tears threatened to fall for a long time...and finally it fell. I feel relieved. And no, i don't feel wronged, don't feel miserable or anything. Just needed an outlet for some pent-up emotions....that's all =). |
| allie ♥ 10:10 PM |
| Sunday, July 13, 2008 |
In Prince's absence, Pastor Joshua preached a fantastic message. One thing that particularly struck me was what he said about God being the main contractor, sub contractor, as well as the electrician, plumber and everything else. People (including me) are always quick to correct others about their wrong-doings, behaviour, saying "why cant they do this..do that", often forgetting that we ourselves are also "under construction". Pastor also mentioned how we always say we want to be better in this and that, without stopping to think that we are "trying" with our own efforts....and many a time by trying hard, things take a turn for the worse. Upon hearing all these, i felt free. Felt that there's no need to pretend or even "think" i'm good. In fact, nothing good dwells in me. It is through Christ that I can do good. Through Christ that i can be righteous. Through Christ that i am everything im not. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong" The more cracks that can be seen, the more opportunities for His strength to flow through. So beautiful.... |
| allie ♥ 9:24 PM |
| Monday, July 07, 2008 |
A thousand times I've seen you standing Gravity like lunar landing You make me wanna run till I find you I shut the world away from here I drift to you, you're all I hear As everything we know fades to black Half the time the world is ending Truth is I am done pretending I never thought that I Had anymore to give You're pushing me so far Here I am without you Drink to all that we have lost Mistakes we have made Everything will change But,love remains the same I find a place where we escape Take you with me for the space The city buzz sounds just like a fridge I walk the streets through seven bars I have to find just where you are The faces seem to blur They're all the same Half the time the world is ending Truth is I am done pretending I never thought that I Had anymore to give You're pushing me so far Here I am without you Drink to all that we have lost Mistakes we have made Everything will change But love remains the same So much more to say So much to be done Don't you trick me out We shall overcome It's all left still to play We - we could have had the sun Could have been inside Instead we're over here Half the time the world is ending Truth is I am done pretending Too much time too long defending You and I are done pretending I never thought that I Had anymore to give You're pushing me so far Here I am without you Drink to all that we have lost Mistakes we have made Everything will change Everything will change I, oh I, I wish this could last forever I, oh I, as if this could last forever Love remains the same Love remains the same I thought today i could have done the bravest thing i've ever done - hit the delete button. And then i thought, why am i doing this, what am i doing this for? A show? A show of detaching myself from bondage? Probably...though i think it means more than that. Means no excuses for me anymore, none more to turn to, none to remember of. Delete delete delete. Recalling what Pastor Mark said about fate earlier this year at the indoor stadium....i believe in fate. Well, i almost reached there. One day, i will be able to hit the delete button with no hesitation. I can see it coming =). Check out what i baked over the weekend...Chewy Chocolate Chip Cookies and Lemon Bars!   Baking is therapeutic =). Really wanna watch Dark Knight...if anyone's keen lemme noe yea? |
| allie ♥ 7:55 PM |
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