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| Thursday, January 31, 2008 |
Read something earlier on a forum. Not sure if i can post this here, let me know if i'm not supposed to. 6 things all woman should know and should vote to pass into an Act. 1. Listen to your inner voice. Its your survival instinct. Its there to protect you from getting hurt. 2. In looking for the courage needed to turn your back and walk away, know that "This Too Will Pass". 3. Make the most of being alone because it is a matter of time before someone else comes along to occupy your thoughts and your time. 4. You are supposed to receive what you give. If you don't. Walk away knowing you treated him well. 5. The basis for any human relationship is friendship. Ask yourself this. Is he treating you like any good friend would? If not, then he's just taking from you whats beneficial to him. 6. Measure a man not by what he says to you but what he does to you. Action speaks louder than words. 7. Checkmate on bad behaviour. You deserve to be treated like a Queen. Know that when he loses the game though, his comeback response starts with - "it is never my intention to …..". Don't fall for it. Nicely summarised and well thought-out. And it holds too :). Simplicity does it for me. I'm perfectly fine with eating at hawker centres instead of restaurants, travelling by public transport instead of car, and just plain hanging out or chatting instead of spending money on doing something else. If love's involved, many things are possible. I used to wonder why girls go for bad guys even though they treat them so badly. Perhaps it's not worth it, but to the girl, sticking around someone she loves is probably better than being with someone who loves her...as they are after all, emotional people, and feelings play a big part. Somehow now i can gradually see why... |
| allie ♥ 3:36 PM |
| Wednesday, January 30, 2008 |
My boss's constant music from his office and his car has somehow influenced me...and i'm now listening to some of the songs he listens to! This song by Shayne Ward has been on repeat in my playlist for the past night and half of today :P Breathless by Shayne Ward If our love was a fairy tale I would charge in and rescue you On a yacht baby we would sail To an island where we’d say I do And if we had babies they would look like you It’d be so beautiful if that came true You don’t even know how very special you are Chorus You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me Breathless And if our love was a story book We would meet on the very first page The last chapter would be about How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made And if we had babies they would have your eyes I would fall deeper watching you give life You don’t even know how very special you are You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me You’re like an angel The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me You’re something special I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me But all I can do is try Every day of my life You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me Breathless You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me Breathless Here's another song that i luuuurrrrve after listening to it on the car ride back to office just now. Until you by Shayne Ward Baby life was good to me But you just made it better I love the way you stand by me Throught any kind of weather I wont wanna run away Just wanna make your day When you fell the world is on your shoulders Dont wanna make it worse Just wanna make us work Baby tell me i will do whatever [Chorus] It feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me Feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me Feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me Baby nobody, nobody,until you Baby it just took one hit of you now I'm addicted You never know what's missing Till you get everything you need,yeah I don't wanna run away Just wanna make your day When you feel the world is on your shoulders Don't wanna make it worse Just wanna make us work Baby tell me,I'll do whatever It feels like nobody ever knew me until you knw me Feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me Feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me Baby,nobody,nobody until you See it was enough to no If I ever let you go I would be no one Cos I never thought I'd feel All the things you made me feel Wasn't looking for someone until you [Chorus repeat twice] Nobody, nobody, until you Breathless is a beautiful beautiful song that i can listen to all day... Until you...is a lovely lovely song that tugs at my heartstrings... Okay i admit, I'm a sucker for such love songs..but i love them nonetheless...for one reason or another :) Music does have healing power... allie needs love...and she probably knows where to find it... |
| allie ♥ 3:54 PM |
| Tuesday, January 29, 2008 |
The walk home always sux....today's no exception. Since i promised i will be good today, i went for a feel-good session...haha. I had...eyelash extensions!! To sum up, it was an uncomfortable experience...even worse than facial!! Lol...my threshold is not that high...so gotta take that into consideration. The glue stings my eyes...making me tear abit. But the good thing is, it took my mind off things for a good 1 half hour. She suggested for me to put on the s-size lashes...but since i didnt wanna waste my money on minimal difference, i decided to be brave and go for the m-size one. And the effect was...shocking! Roar! Lol...ultra long lashes that really opened up my eyes...but i'm not too used to it...cos it's soooooooooooooo long! .jpg) Can't really see v well from the pic though....but that's the best i can do with my camera phone. I love what it does to my eyes though...i dont look sleepy anymore. No need makeup to look dolly :). Heh...maybe i will get used to the length soon. Oh well, the extensions i did at a cheap place, after 3 of my colleagues went. Since they didnt complain too much, i thought it will be fine for me too. The whole experience weren't great i admit...but i do like the luscious lashes effect though. Definitely cheered me up today :) Went through a day almost totally by myself even though i dont feel very "well". But i'm kinda proud that i didnt rant to anyone! Resisted the urge to msg ger and justin...hahahaha....weeeeeee.....felt like an achievement...albeit a tinnnnnyyy tinnyyyyy one. Life's good after all :) |
| allie ♥ 9:40 PM |
| Monday, January 28, 2008 |
Was watching Romantic Princess, which makes me feel good yet at the same thing brings back alot of memories. Login maple and the things they say made me feel sad. Today's my off day. I've been good for a week. Just let me be for one day. Tomorrow i will be good...i promise. |
| allie ♥ 9:34 PM |
I'm fine...though feeling abit odd...but i'm fine. Went for a gathering that i didn't really wanna go and was convinced to do otherwise. Haha...that line sounds funny...like trying to give a reason for another unknown reason...but yeah..i know better :P. Did i feel outta place? Nope. Did i feel like i shouldn't be there? Nope. Did i feel awkward? Yes, sometimes. Did i feel like going home? Not really. Did i enjoy myself? Yep, i did. I guess that just answers about everything :). Denson was really entertaining, talked about many stories from the air force that made all of us laugh. His wife was really nice too, friendly, approachable and interesting. Glad i had the chance to talk to them yesterday. Sometimes people ask me why i make myself go through this. I guess they feel sad or pained to see me like how i was like before. But i'm glad things happened...cos i learnt alot outta it. Alot, alot, alot. Things that i'd never imagined i could learn...and it put many things into perspective. I'm glad that i went through it...every part of it...and with each time i go through something, i will come out stronger than before :). "The door was closed cos he knows better" stuck in my head. Sometimes a deal falls through, or when things just don't happen the way you want it to, it's because he knows better. Perhaps another door will open more doors for you, something better in store, and it's better to let go of this one as your turn will eventually come. Sometimes you have to go through the pain, the agony and the heartwrenching moments in order to learn and come out of it in a better way. Perhaps it just wasn't meant to be. Perhaps i don't deserve him at all. Thinking back on what i've done for him, everything seems so small, so minor. At that point, i do think that i've been putting in alot of effort. But in comparison with what i've received, or what he's given for me, it seems like nothing much. Perhaps i really don't deserve him. And i hope he eventually finds someone who does. As for me now, i'm happy with how things are going now. Much self reflection and self improvement going on. Would like it to stay this way for some time :). Was talking to ger and i realise what the things i think about...and the things im going through, seem extremely normal. Let it run its course...and things will be sorted out on their own. So many people tell me so many different stories. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and i'm entitled to mine too. And since it's really affairs of my own, i guess i should know best..that is, once i'm able to see things clearly and sort things out. And i do see that happening...seeing better, thinking better, feeling better. Detailing these little little things in my faved blog also makes me feel a whole lot better, like getting a whole load of things off my chest. Shall continue to do that whenever i feel like it :). |
| allie ♥ 9:32 AM |
| Saturday, January 26, 2008 |
Just had a talk with mummy again...this time about finances...mine and the household's. It's about time for me to do something about it...and i am gathering information and resources to do that. Just that mum doesnt know...and she thought i wasn't doing anything about it. Sigh...i guess parents never stop worrying do they? I told her to trust me...cos i've been doing what i should do...but it will take time. She feels stressed...like everyone needs her care and control. I can totally understand why...especially when she said we dont talk to her anymore. That's why i spent another hour or so sitting and listening to what she has to say...till she felt tired and wanted to sleep. I wish she knew that if she wanted to talk, i would be most willing to sit there and listen to her. And that was the reason why she complained after walking outta my bro's room, i immediately went over to talk to her. She said we face our computers too much, wake up too late, come back too late, no time to talk to her. I admit, i'm guilty of that. For the past week, i've been coming home late and for the past few weekends, i'm barely at home. I explained to her why...that i needed to do that in order to keep myself sane and in check...she understood. Actually, alot of things just require a tiny bit of effort in communicating and it will solve many problems. Yet it's something that is lacking in the relationships between people. I'm finally beginning to understand...and i hope what i'm trying to do now...she can see that i'm making effort. i love my mummy and wouldnt trade her for anything else in the world. She's probably the only person i would wholely listen to...even though i appear to contend with her advice. I wished she knew...in her heart...though i've told her many times...but she doesnt seem to believe truly in it. Have i been doing too little? I wonder. I really should try harder...and try to get my bro to do so as well. It takes time though...to get everything right. After all, i've just graduated not long ago. Perhaps i was late in learning alot of things...things which people have already put in place before they graduated. But every person's situation is different. I would just say i tried to do whatever i could within the circumstances given. I wish mummy could stop worrying so much...an almost impossible task i know...but i still hope that one day she can do so. Seeing her worries, her thoughts, her burden just made me forget everything that i was experiencing. She was worried that i was having problems at work. But work for me, is fine at this point. The people in my office helps alot as there is minimal politics...it's like a girls school! Yep, so that makes things a whole lot easier, less problems too. I wish my bro could plan ahead abit more. Seeing how he manages finances can give me a huge fright. I hope things get better... Now to my own situation, need to put my foot down and really do the things i'm supposed to do. Read more, find out more and get down to making plans. It sounds exciting...yet challenging and intimidating. Yet...it seems full of purpose...kinda cool too. Haha...i don't know what im writing anymore. Random thoughts again...probably don't make much sense. I do have such days...hahaha...bear with me! Took this off XY's blog: "Don’t blame these promises-breaking narrators, for we all know that there is an understated clause in between their lines that states the validity of these expressions." Can't help but agree with it :) |
| allie ♥ 11:09 PM |
| Thursday, January 24, 2008 |
Have i really? Though the answer i do know quite clearly...haha. Oh well....i didnt consciously try to do anything to myself...but things happen...and i do find myself eating lesser...appetite getting smaller. What's wrong with me man...i used to be able to eat so much...and i wish i still can...but the thought of food just makes me....so sian... This brings me to another topic. Was examining the girls in my office, and there's this girl who's quite different - curvy, well-endowed and attractive imo. But she's not skinny. There are other girls who are really skinny, but imo, not as attractive as the curvy gal. Sometimes i wonder if it's better to have more flesh...cos it looks better...at least to me. And i wonder why do so many girls want to be so skinny. Imo, they dont look very good. I prefer the curvier ones, more volume...but more sexy too...haha. Hmmmm...but guys tend to prefer skinny girls...makes me wonder why too...oh well... Spent the whole morning talking about Syl's Taiwan trip. See what she bought for meeee Lavshuca eyeshadow palette in blue  Pretty pink chopsticks from Dan Shui .jpg) I lurrrrrve these...makes me sooo happy! Though i dont really have the mood to go make my favourite bentos...i still havent gotten past that stage. Was just talking to Alanna this afternoon about my favourite past times - scrapbooking, making bentos and baking. All these...i cant do anymore for the time being because of various reasons. I can't bring myself to do these yet...though i miss these hobbies very much. Plus, my mum lent our oven to my aunt...just when i decided to bake something. Sigh...looks like it's gonna take me a while longer. I miss baking cupcakes...cookies...brownies. I miss making my scrapbooks. I miss making my bentos. Looking from another point of view...im not at home long enough to do all these...lol. Alright, enough nonsensical ranting....tata for now :) |
| allie ♥ 10:51 PM |
| Tuesday, January 22, 2008 |
4 whole hours...i recall. Usually my cupcakes take around 2-3 hours to complete. But that took me 4 whole hours...woke up early and left the house late somemore...haha. It was well worth it :). At least the people i gave them to liked the cupcakes :). Today, we went to Ichiban Boshi at Suntec....one of my favourite places to go. But after tasting the food, somehow i feel the esplanade branch is better...or is it just psychological...i dunno...haha. Anyway, we had a very satisfying meal! I ate alot alot alot...cos we ordered alot! Ordered soba, teriyaki chicken don, unagi handrolls, lobster rolls, chawanmushi (my favouriteeeee), soft shell crab and a mochi...sooo much. I usually dont eat that much when i patron japanese restaurants...haha. After that, i was craving for Gelare...but we were all too full to down anymore ice cream waffles...so we gave that a miss =(. Had to miss the Gelare half price waffles on tuesday...but they said we shall go another day! I shall hold on to that promise :P. It's great meeting with Eileen and Peiwen again...talked about everything from sec sch to uni to work. And talked about our siblings, people we meet, and common people we know. Hope that the CNY gathering will materialise! On my way back, i was just thinking about how Zm has changed...how he wishes for the girl to be happy even though she's not with him. All he wanted...was for her to be happy and for the other guy to treat her well...and he cant bear to see her get hurt again. So sweet...i thought to myself...and such TLC...haha. As of now, i also wish for him to be happy...however it may be. Doesnt really matter whether i come into the picture or not...cos that's not important. This week's suddenly a packed week for me. At first i thought i'm gonna be eating at home the whole week...but apparently that was not to be. I'm gonna be out for the whole week instead! Hmmmm...wonder if that's good...but i love to meet my friends too! Be it those close to me, or those i havent met in a long time. I seem to have found my life back. So many things to do...so little time. Good thing that i'm having a bit of a breather at work for the time being...i hope this lasts :P. So many plans ahead of me....this weekend, next weekened, my birthday weekend. I can't wait! Though i kinda dread the month of march...=X. Ces't La Vie, that's life, gotta live with it even though i'm growing older with each second! |
| allie ♥ 10:08 PM |
| Monday, January 21, 2008 |
Today...i really felt good...like refreshed, rejuvenated, renewed. The first of many days when i'm actually focused at work...haha. And i could muster the strength and creative juices to finished my much overdue press release! Cool...it felt like a small victory for me :). Felt like the hurt's gone...though i've no idea if it's temporary or permanent...only time will tell. Felt like i could take things in my stride again...thought about all the worst scenarios that can happen...some might affect me more than the others...but none that will cripple me again...at least that was the scenario in my head...haha. Felt like the answers i've been seeking dont seem to matter anymore. What matters more is what i have on hand...and to make full use of it. Will continue when i feel like it...ha :P |
| allie ♥ 7:57 PM |
Couldnt sleep long so i woke up at 9 am this morning. Did a bit of housework, read my newspapers and watched 1.5 episodes of Romantic PRincess. I love the show! It's so funny and Wu Zun is sooooooo shuai. Angela is sooooo pretty too. Hehe... The reason why i only watched 1 and another half episode was because i had to meet ger for church. Wanted to go early and grab a seat but in the end both of us were late...=X. Anyway, i learnt alot of things from today's session...felt like an extremely fruitful as well as entertaining session for me. I definitely enjoyed it and looking forward to more :) After church, we went to take a quick dinner before heading over to Kbox for some stress relief...singing! Hehe...one of my favourite pasttimes...but i've lost touch cos my uni ktv kakis dont go out together and sing anymore. Here's some snapshots from the ktv session. I really need to get a camera man...the pics are so blur...=X The Ktv gang! Yosef, Kristy, me and Rubin   Our individual snapshots. This is Rubin.  Kristy...  Meeee.....  Yosef....  Haha...see how at home everyone seems to be. We had the huuuuuge sofa all to ourselves  Kristy when she's singing "Bai se hun li"...her favourite song...lol...so had to step up and prep for the big moment.  Me twirling my hair as usual...haha  Ger playing with the camera...trying to take a good shot of me...lol. Here's the result. Not bad i would say...though i really love the photo she has on her Facebook.  The Camera whores at it again! Note the fingers 1,2,3,5,7 :P      I think my facial expressions have improved a weeee bit! Lol!! That's it for now....gonna go catch some zzz's... |
| allie ♥ 12:31 AM |
| Sunday, January 20, 2008 |
My goodness it hurts...so bad... The question in my head is always..."why?"... But i'll never get the answers... Will the pain in my heart ever go away? |
| allie ♥ 10:21 AM |
Yesterday was a good day for me...had alot of fun and totally enjoyed myself. Went to play some Wii at Yongxiang's house....Olympics is fun!!! But it was also super tiring. I cant swim with the Wii for nuts! Haha...but i think i was pretty ok at the archery and 100m dash part. Gymnastics was really really fun too...but my reaction's not the best =X. After that, went to do some shopping at Far East with Alvin. Was craving for instant noodles at Hong Kong cafes...but there wasn't one at Far East. Can anyone tell me where to find nice noodles like that in Orchard area? In the end, we went to Kitchenmogumogu...the new bento place that i've been wanting to go but no one to go with. Well, the place is served by young pretty girls wearing sailormoon-like uniforms. The ordering process is totally machinised...point point on the screen to make your order, and then pay by slotting your cash into the cash slot. Pretty simple i would say, but the menu's in Japanese and doesnt provide much description into the various dishes available. I had to ask the girls what does each dish consist of in order to find out. Here's an overview of how the place looks like. Didnt mean to take photos of anyone...but that was the best i can do without making anyone uncomfortable =X  Alvin ordered the Omu rice. It had ham, raisins, peas and other 'liao' inside. .jpg) I had....Fluffy Bear! Haha...yessss...that's the name of that bento. It's soooooo cute. The ears are made of pork cutlet, fluffy face made of pork floss, raisin eyes and tomatoes for its nose! I'm inspired to make bentos again...but that's only when i can muster enough strength to do it again. Well, we shall seee... .jpg) =( Sad...my half eaten bear face!!! I very she bu de eat the bear lo...that's the problem with such cute bentos. Nice to look...but can't bear to eat!! .jpg) Eating at kitchenmogumogu was so so only. The food, especially the kawaii bentos, are priced quite steep. But the normal bentos are alright...comparable to Yoshinoya. But this does taste healthier...less msg and all it seems. More "dan" taste for its bentos. Hmmm....but i still feel that the prices are kinda steep for its portions...which are quite small for males, but alright for females. The kawaii bentos do come served in larger portions though. Apparently, they make only 30 sets of each Kawaii bento, so i didnt get my first choice! Soooo wanted to eat the one with the chicky chicky...but it was sold out =(. Anyways, i think it's always worth a first try. Especially for those who haven't seen such cuuuuuuuuuuuuute bentos before! Maybe you will be inspired to jump onto this bento craze too...like me! Hahahahaha....i hope to have more bento sharing kakis you know....:P. |
| allie ♥ 1:07 AM |
| Saturday, January 19, 2008 |
cooped all inside...i feel stifled... i keep telling myself...it'll take time...just take one step at a time and things will be fine... will it really? I believe it will...when there's a will there's a way... Allie ah allie...how did you become like this... i dunno...i didnt want this to happen either... perhaps it's a chance to grow up...and see how i can overcome this... yesterday, zm said that as we grow older, we tend to be less motivated to do sweet little things for our loved ones... as much as i think that it's true...i dont wanna see that happen...growing up shouldnt be an excuse for that... and he said...everything depends on fate now...haha...i kinda agree... feel so resigned...so many things are outta my reach and power... turning my attention towards things that i can do and change...requires loads of effort...at least im trying... at times, i feel that im more carefree...alot of things i dont have to worry about anymore...yet...it feels like i've left a part of me somewhere...somewhere that cant be found... do i really have to leave it behind? or can i still bring it along with me? i guess for the time being i have to leave it behind... everyday's a struggle to get through...a mental, physical and emotional challenge. Seems like a personal battle right now...and only i can help myself ultimately. This battle is mine. |
| allie ♥ 5:36 PM |
Met with my "bro" Zuoming yesterday...haven't met him in a looong looong time already, so we decided to meet up for dinner! Still remember that in uni, he was my bro, soccer kaki, mj kaki and dinner buddy. Pity that he moved out after some time...so nobody to watch soccer with me after that :(. 7pm at work yesterday, i totally had no mood nor mind to do anything more. So i decided to just put down everything and get out of the office. Msged him that i was leaving my office, and in 5 minutes i've reached Suntec, our meeting place. He got a huge shock cos he thought i will take more time than that to reach. Haha...little did he know that my office is just 5 minutes away from Suntec! We had two choices for dinner - Waraku or Kuishin-bo. As we were lazy to walk all the way to Marina for Waraku, we ate at Kuishin-bo. It's been a good few years since the last time i've been here. This was the first time i'm having dinner there...and the food seemed to have changed quite abit. The sushi spread  First round! I took some sashimiiiii while he got sushi.  Nabe...paper steamboat!  My second round...soft shell crabby and sashimiiii again!  And after a few more plates....dessert! I love chocolate...so everything is chocolate! Yummy yummy  His dango, mango pudding and cakes.  All in all, i had a great time chatting with him for about 3 hours or so. Talked about everything under the sun, our uni mates, jobs, holidays, friends, family, relationships etc. Listening to him talk about his Europe trip really make me very "gian" to go Europe! The wonders of travelling...if i have enough cash i would definitely want to travel round the world. Perhaps sometime in future...a trip overseas alone too. But first things first...gotta plan for my Japan trip and save up! Yesterday at work was sian day for me. I was feeling sian...like dont feel like talking yet there are alot of things trapped with me. Feel "men men de". I have no idea why. Perhaps the inner battle at work...no overwhelming emotions...more resigned than anything. I'm beginning to get used to this feeling...the "sianness". The things i do helps to take my mind off things...but however it's only temporary. Feel worse after whatever i did actually. There are many things i wished to rant about...but somehow...ranting makes me cry. Perhaps i should just zip for the time being...and suppress that negative feeling. The pain doesnt go away...it's always there. I know it's been some time...but looking at Zm, it's still there too after more than a year. This sets me wondering when will it go away. As a friend said "the more you want it to go away, the harder it is to disappear". Perhaps...it is true. People keep asking me to go for the bbq...i dunno whether to go, or not. I don't think i can muster the courage to face the group...at least not yet. It's still hurting bad...and i dont wish to undo all the effort that has been put in. As i'm writing this, my mood seems different...i sound different too. No idea why. I guess sometimes being forced to accept things you dont wanna accept makes one feel like this. Especially when i dont understand alot of things...so many questions unanswered...so many doubts not cleared. I guess a part of me will always feel xin ku this way. Sometimes i wish i could blame it on someone...but knowing me...i cant bring myself to do that. Everything is just my fault...blame me. Letting go without any answers or closure is extremely tough...but i've got no chance. I tried to get the answers...but it just wont come. Too bad. I need a holiday...badly. I need some time to myself...just me only. |
| allie ♥ 10:27 AM |
| Friday, January 18, 2008 |
Had a talk with mummy yesterday night...all started when she decided to do something about how i was feeling. She said even when i dont tell her, she could tell that i'm unhappy. I teared. Even when looks or words were not exchanged, she seems to be able to read my feelings perfectly....though not what is going through my head. Nobody can read other people's thoughts completely...if they can it would be so meaningless...defeats the purpose of communication which makes bonds and relationships stronger. She told me alot of things which made total sense to me....made me tear even more cos it hit a nerve. Things which i could see...which were right in front of me...but it wasn't crystal clear. The more she said to me, the more i could see things clearly. And with whatever that has happened, i think soon i can believe in that conclusion that's to be made. Just need to piece together everything to form the story in my head...heh. It was one of those talks...when i just lay on my bed and listened, and listened, and listened. The only things i needed to do were nod or shake my head. Me love mummy. She told me 你应该很开心才对....which made me cry even harder. Was I not happy before? I wondered. She then went into the description of how i looked and acted months ago...and commented that i looked truly happy...but in recent months...she said my 精神不好...and lost weight. Was I? I wondered. I really dont know... I only knew i was tired at one point...cos i had to go out every day. Plus my client's crisis didnt help things at all. But i didnt say anything to her. She said 真正爱你的人不会伤害你的...which made me quiet for awhile. I guess...it should be true...though the truth always hurts. And she told me the people who really care...will show through their actions and words. Well this, i truly believe :). I know who cares and who doesn't. Who truly sincerely care, and those whose words mean nothing. Haha, talk is cheap, if not free. Well...really feel like taking a break from work to do some thinking and soul searching. Still need to wait for my colleagues to come back before i can go anywhere..=( A friend sent this song to me "Inconsolable" by Backstreet Boys. Haha...i think many people will remember them cos they were all our childhood idols! I remember liking Nick Carter when he was like 16 years old...cos my whole class find him cute! Now i do prefer the clean-cut Brian Littrell though. Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys I close the door Like so many times, so many times before Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor When I let you walk away tonight Without a word I try to sleep, yeah But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh If you were here right now, I swear, I'd tell you this CHORUS Baby I don't want to waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me 'Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you (to you) I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable I climb the walls I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no. I've memorised the number So why can't i make the call Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me In the possibilities CHORUS Baby I don't wanna waste another day (another day) Keeping it inside it's killing me 'Cause all I ever want it comes right down to you (to you) I wish that I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Oh oh no no no I don't wanna be like this I just wanna let you know 'Cause everything that I hold in Is everything I can't let go Oh oh oh oh can't let go Yeah yeah yeah yeah CHORUS 'Cause baby I don't wanna waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me (killing me 'cause) 'Cause all I ever want (all I ever wanted) Comes right down to you (to you), to you (to you) I wish that I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Oh oh oh oh Don't you know it baby I don't wanna waste another day I wish that I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah oh oh I'm inconsolable Whoa oh oh oh yeah yeah oh oh I'm inconsolable Oh oh yeah yeah Those familiar voices...ever so good to hear again. I'm probably gonna dig out more of their songs :). |
| allie ♥ 9:35 AM |
| Thursday, January 17, 2008 |
Loving an Imperfect Person They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her. Today, she's being willful again. Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay." Him: "I don't have time that day." Her: "Humph!" Him: "Huh?" Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need." Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day." Her: "Humph! I don't care, you'll have to do it for her!" Him: "No." Her: "Just this once?" Him: "No." Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or else..." First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi... Except the double bed, to show her "benevolence". Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets. Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences." He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees. Third day, night. On the bed. He's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side. Him: "We need to talk." Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it." Him: "It's something very important." She remains silent. Him:"Let's get a divorce." She did not believe her ears. Him: "I got to know a girl." She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's the only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless. Him: "She's a nice girl." Her tears fell. Him: "She has a good personality too." She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart. Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married." She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past. Him: "She loves me truly." She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?" Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't want to do." She's thinking, but the rage won't subside. Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?" Her: "...!" He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face. He sighs. She cries. He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket. He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up. He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him. She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks. She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh. It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek. He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep. "You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." Story of Regret There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came. Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him. He did not wish to mislead her in any way. So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back. That went on for several years and each year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest. So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy. The girl took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl, but she was too proud to admit it. Still, every Christmas, she returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed. Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer. Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved. Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way. He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them. Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted. So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the girl never return anymore. They never even wrote to each other. The guy went on with his life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him, he missed the girl. On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friend. He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her, still he just surged on. Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady. He wanted so much to ignore her ..... not that he was impolite, but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore. It was almost like he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her. "Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked. "Sure.....yeah!", he replied. She was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued, "Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......" Before he can continue, he was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The man looked up, as if he has struck gold, his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl. He replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years." With that, the man darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl, and she was.....the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him. All along he has found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes.....perfection!! Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life, he decided to call her immediately. His whole mind was flooded with fear. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, he felt the fear of losing someone. As it was Christmas eve, the line was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, he got through......precisely at 1200 midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears. It seemed that she never got over him! Even after so long, she was still waiting for him, never giving up. He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived. Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after 6 hours in a coma. The guy was devastated, as it was a complete loss. Why did fate played such cruel games with him? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods...!! How he hated himself....for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996. The moral of this story is : Treasure what you have... Time is too slow for those who wait; Too swift for those who fear; Too long for those who grief; Too short for those who rejoice; But for those who love... Time is Eternity. For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late. |
| allie ♥ 9:33 PM |
| Wednesday, January 16, 2008 |
On my way back home...i was just thinking about how having regrets is the worst thing that can happen to anyone after a relationship ends. Listening to bro talk about it...he ended up not being able to forgive himself, when it was in his hands and yet he completely ruined it. Regrets...ha...i dont wish to talk about mine. Will continue to blog when i can have some control over myself... .jpg) Ok back... Just washed my face with tears again. I'm beginning to hate those weaknesses of mine...totally being exploited. I feel stupid, silly, dumb...whatever you call it. A part of me is angry, another part is upset, another part is disappointed, another part is hurt. I know i get hurt time and time again. Yet everytime im so weak i sorta asked for more hurt...not literally of cos. Perhaps it's time to learn my lesson....once and for all. Allie's been looking back wayyyy too much. Something hits her, she turns back, sees a whole host of things, and starts to walk back. I've seen this soooo many times. No Allie...you cant do that anymore. Forces might make you turn back....but your will is always stronger...so use the strength of your will...and walk on... |
| allie ♥ 8:11 PM |
Your blood type is AB. Your personality is popular yet controlled, sociable yet aloof, Outgoing yet shy, sensitive yet thoughtless, a very split personality. This makes you very exciting friend indeed. You are most compatible with: everyone! The part about the personality is quite accurate. But doesnt it seem to apply to many people as well? Hahahaha....the last line...i dunno =X. Maybe not! |
| allie ♥ 10:18 AM |
| Tuesday, January 15, 2008 |
Well, today the gals in the office were reading 8 days...and spent an ESPECIALLY long time on the hunks page...hahahaha. We were all gushing over how cute they were and who liked who etc. Then after that, someone realised that she knew a person from mediacorp and asked for more pictures!!! Here's the eye candy :P Group Shot of all the guys...they look much better here than in 8 days.  Another nice shot...more natural and cute.  Hahaha....my favourite one. The Japanese S-league player.  More more....this is extremely cute.  Hmmm....i think he looks cuter in 8 Days leh. Anyways, Alanna and Emily likes the Chris guy! Though when we saw 8 days...all of them liked this guy. So do check out Deal or no deal - hunks special tomorrow at 8.30pm, channel 5. Free advertisement...lol! Was feeling extremely bad just now, pain to the max, heart hurts like hell....but now i'm better le. Still can smile =) |
| allie ♥ 9:39 PM |
Have to get out of this habit of blogging in the morning but i guess i won't feel better unless i let it all out. Felt like bursting earlier on...but i guess now im much calmer. A friend told me "What's meant to be yours will be yours". Having been a strong believer of "Your fate lies in your hands", i find this pretty hard to swallow. However, with the recent turn of events, I guess that makes sense after all. One can only control the things within one's control, and not those that are outside of the control boundary. Especially when it concerns other people, "your fate lies in your hands" theory sometimes do not hold. Well i stress...sometimes...not all the time. Perhaps taking his way of thinking to me seems like being resigned to the way life is...but i guess...sometimes i just have to do that. There are things that can be changed, yet there are other things which cannot. As much as i would like to change things, some things are just not within my power. As i always say "Dont worry about the things you cannot control" =). There are times when i wonder if i would be happier being with the one i love even when the person dont love me. I hate to fall into that trap really...but when i take a step back and look at things from the outside...the answer is no. I wanna be with someone whom i love and loves me back...not one-sided in any way. Just like the traditional saying "liu de zhu ta de ren dan liu bu zhu ta de xin" (pardon me if i got it wrong), there seems to be no point in that. What's the point of having someone with you, beside you when the person's mind and heart is not there? Both parties won't be happy and this wouldn't last either. Somehow, repeating that once again makes me feel better. Was just resting my the sofa at home and staring into space earlier today. It felt good...like my mind was clear and relaxed for once in a long long time. Took a few deep breaths...and found that perhaps what im experiencing now isn't new to me after all. And i do think that having experience certain things in life makes one more well-eqipped to understand the situation better. I feel as if i could understand things from two parties' points of view. One from A's view and one from B's view. The situation with A is somehow similar to that with B, just that i was put in different roles. Somehow, when with A, i also felt the feeling fading, and needed time to be away...in order to see things clearly. And thinking back, even when i felt like going back sometimes, i can't bring myself to do it. I needed distance...needed time...before i can be sure of what i really want. Now that i'm in A's shoes...i finally know how difficult it was during this period. I can't help thinking that being a girl seems to make matters worse for me...but i guess it's largely similar. The helplessness, the feeling of the ball not being in your court, and the fact that there isnt anything you can do to make things better...sux big time. But somehow, when things reached that stage, there's really nothing you can do. Two choices are available: to hang on and hope for the best, or to completely let go. Till now, I havent exactly decided which route to take...typical of my indecisive nature when it comes to things like this. Sometimes i wish i could be the person i am at work when i know what i want and i go and get it. My head tells me to opt for the latter...but sometimes i can't bring myself to do so. It's a continuous struggle...to keep sticking to a decision or option you've chosen. It's hard...very hard. Before letting go, one has to face up to reality: the person not loving you anymore, that things wont work out, that you cant have what you want, that the person is happier without you, that sweet memories are just a thing of the past, that he's not yours anymore, and he would be happier with someone else. Letting go is tough...cos it's not just made of the two words "let" and "go". There are so many aspects of it. Letting go of the person, the hurt, the feelings, the love that was shared, the sweet memories, the not-so-sweet memories, the bond, the hope, the pain, the the emotional attachment and burden. Sometimes you let go of certain aspects, but the attachment to other aspects is still there. I guess what made this difficult for me was how the relationship seem perfect to me and suddenly the perfectness turned to nothing. It's hard to face it... and even more difficult to let it go. Understanding A's situation then shed new light onto the picture. I remembered how i didnt wanna hurt anyone but in the end had to because there was no other way. I was still concerned about how A was doing...though i needed distance and was reluctant to talk then. This scenario seems so similar to mine now...except for the reversal of roles. Though the two situations might not be as similar as i made them out to be. Somehow, it brought a new perspective to the whole situation. I guess being in A's shoes then...and mine now...is the worse of the two. But somebody has to go through that, just that this time it's me. Though if possible, i wouldnt want anyone to go through this...but it is...impossible. It's part and parcel of life and one can only come out stronger eventually. I hate to say this. But one only knows how much a person mean to him/her when he/she loses it. It's not healthy...not at all. But it happens...all the time. So treasure the people you love, while you still have them =). Phew...feels alot better when everything is out. Shall try to improve my language the next time round =). |
| allie ♥ 9:36 AM |
| Monday, January 14, 2008 |
Perhaps i cant shut it all out...though i can probably find ways to shorten the time span for it. Thinking back, i do realise there are many occassions which i've hurt him too. I know now...and I feel bad about it. I dont have the power to change things that happened. Things already happened and no doubt it will cause some scarring. I can only try and understand what has happened, and apologise what i've done. I guess i'm really sorry for the hurt i've caused...to him and to others. Wouldnt do it again if its within my control....dont wanna hurt the people i care about this time round. Time to reflect on the areas which i can do better in... It isnt't easy for anyone...which i do understand. Neither parties would have it easy...i think. Guess my way of letting things out is to write, talk and cry. Writing down everything on my blog definitely beats crying. So i shall do that more. Really grateful for the great company i've had over the past week. And thanks to Ger, bro, and Yosef for spending the weekend with me. I had fun doing all the shopping, talking and blading =). Was just thinking of the reason why guys hate confrontation, after finding similarities between the people we've talked about. Perhaps they are afraid to face the truth, dont wanna hurt the person in front of them, or they are running away instead of solving the problem head on. Any other reasons? Gotta think about it further... Honestly, communication is one the best ways to solve any problem. And it takes true, sincere, honest communication to solve the problem. Communication is the key to many things. Why do i seem to sound so text-book like when im writing this? Haha...mass comm student :P This morning...i finally walked into Mr Bean and bought my fav soyabean milk..though i still cant bring myself to buy the pancake. It's only been two short weeks...yet it seemed like eternity...each day passing slowly. Thoughts that went through my head over the past few weeks have somehow made me think a little differently. Many things that i dont use to understand...i think i do now. Having been used to getting my way around things, sometimes it's the little setbacks that teach me the meaning of treasuring people and things...and a whole host of other meanings of life. Ces't La Vie...That's life...I love life... |
| allie ♥ 9:34 AM |
| Sunday, January 13, 2008 |
Spent the whole of last night talking to ger, who slept over at my place. Sadly, Mabel couldnt join us as she was drunk. Talked about loads of stuff, people, things and the common instances we've had....and the mentality of mums and parents. It was a really really nice heart to heart talk, got to know alot of things that happened for her which i never knew before. Things about past relationships, family concerns, outlook in life...lessons learnt. Made me learn alot from the conversation. Somehow, it made certain things clearer, and gave me more options about what choices I have when faced with certain circumstances. Both of us teared...when we talked about things that hurt...which made me realise that the hurt caused...will always remain...though time can help to lessen the hurt. Thinking back on the progress i've made over the past two weeks...it seems like a tiny wrong step can wipe out the improvements made... Another thing that came up...we both were wondering why do guys hate confrontations so much. When girls mentioned they wanna talk, the guys will shun. I wonder why? I missed talking to ger...missed hearing about her life...missed having such heart-to-heart talks...missed hanging out with her... I also missed Dihua...missed talking to Dihua...missed hanging out with Dihua... Though i wished to say all this...but i guess i cant bring myself to do so... As always, it takes two hands to clap...and some things might not be possible again. Yea..snap me out of it again pls. Memories, to me, are meant to be kept and treasured, especially the good ones. I regret not blogging about some of the happiest moments in my life over the past few months. This blog details many many precious memories for me...and i wish to keep it here and in my heart. Sometimes to people, memories can be made and erased, altered or changed. But if so, to me it wouldnt be the same anymore, it's like changing history, when things happen, but people write selectively about it. For me, i prefer to keep it whole and complete. Be it good, or bad...unless these things are not worth remembering anymore...perhaps that is the case. Okay...on to the activities for today. Woke up super early this morning to go rollerblading with ger and Yosef. Ger wearing her blades.  Yosef wearing his blades. Rented at only $7 for 2 hours! The last time i rented it costed me $10!  Me and my very very old blades!!  Ger and I preparing to push off  Yosef multitasking  Ger happily blading!  Far far awayyyyy  Us again! All smiles except for ger. Read below!  Ger fell a few times today =(. Tried my best to teach her how to go downslope but it would take practice to do that. There was once time she fell and landed in a graceful position, and a group of people bladed past and ask her "are you okay?", while another who cycled past asked "Suntanning?". Haha...so cute of them. Too bad no pictures of that for now. But it definitely cheered her up! On my way back, i fell too =(. Tripped over a branch and fell. But oh well, minor scratches....should be fine. After that we went back to bathe, before heading down to church service with ger. My first time there...it was interesting really. Didnt know what to expect but it was like listening to a story...a story with lotsa lessons to be learnt. Though i didnt totally understand everything, it was a nice experience and i would like to go again sometime. The singing part was particularly enjoyable =) Apologies for my incoherent blog post...feeling down again...cant seem to think straight. Pardon me =X From what a friend says, sometimes it's normal to feel like this...even though when i think im alright already. It can just hit you right smack, without knowing when or where it came from, and down I go again. What's more important is to pick myself up after going down...and sometimes i just have to do it myself. Yes i do know that. I promised i will try...and i will =). |
| allie ♥ 7:06 PM |
| Saturday, January 12, 2008 |
Woke up early in the morning cos i couldnt sleep and was thinking of the activities i had later on in the day. So i got out of bed, did some housework for mummy...ironed clothes, vacuum the floor, before i went to bathe and went out. My first stop, the hair salon to do my hair! Have been wanting to dye my hair for the longest time really...and today, i finally went to do it. Tada....my new hair colour...lol. Not a great change from my current colour, but i like it nevertheless =). .jpg) After that, went to meet Alvin to shop for some shirts. G2000 was very crowded due to the sale...but there really wasnt much to see in there. Also went to Springfield, the shirts were not bad..but a little ex though. He bought two shirts there...nice nice! After being the fashion advisor for a few hours, i headed over to AMK hub to meet ger for some shopping of our own! Poor bro gotta go watch movie alone because of that =(. Oh well, for the 2 hours while bro watched AVP, we only went into 3 shops! Haha! Went to Verge cos ger wanted to try on some clothes...but didnt buy anything. Then we went to Dano. Dano isnt really the kind of shop i usually patron, but we spent like almost a good hour there =X. Ger was trying lotsa clothes and to my surprise, i found a few things that i like there too! In the end, i bought a pretty white top, a white skirt which i totally adore, and a satin purple tube top. I love the tube and skirt combi...ger says it's nice too! Ger bought a pinafore skirt and bright pink shirt which i thought was really cute, as well as a pair of pants. We actually spent enough to qualify for membership after a hefty 30% discount =X. I cant believe we went so mad there...haha. After some damage to my pocket, we went over to Vana to see some shoes. There was a bright blue polka dotted pair that i absolutely adore. But i didnt have anything to go with it so didnt buy it =(. It was reaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllly pretty though. Disclaimer: girls put their phones in their bags so they cant really hear their ringtones when it's noisy and cant feel the vibrations either....unlike guys who can feel the vibrations cos they put their phones in their pocket "How can i supposed to find you girls when you dont pick up your phones?????" was the message i got from bro. Oops!!! Turned out that bro had been walking around AMK hub twice before he found us. Hahahahaha...sorry la....phone in bag, cannot hear nor feel the vibrations =X. Was feeling hungry by this time so we went for dinner at Ichiban Sushi. I love Ichiban's food. Tried the food at Ichiban Boshi and it was great! So i was happy to patronise another Ichiban branch today. But the queue was sooooooooo long....about 15-20 people in front of us. But the wait wasn't long, good for us, and we managed to get a seat in about 20 minutes. Finally, Makan time!! Feeling happy for myself cos this is the first meal of my day!Look at the amount of food we ordered!! Hmmm...dont look like alot...haha!  Ger feeling happy with the spread we got!  What's left after some time  The poor salmon sushi...which none of us had space for in the end. Sorryyyyy =X  Yum yum....i love the chawanmushi at Ichiban! Will definitely go back again...but i do feel that the Esplanade branch serves much better food, in terms of their standard. Me and my shopping bags!  All in all, great day I've end. Much damage to my pocket...though in the name of CNY =X. Waiting for the babes to come pei me now.....=) |
| allie ♥ 11:13 PM |
| Friday, January 11, 2008 |
Can't imagine getting married at her age. It's impossible for me, perhaps cos i still dont have the urge to settle, and i havent found the right one? Heee.... Jas was really really really very pretty that day. It's amazing how good she looks with makeup and hair done. Her photos are great as well! She looks like a model in her photo album pictures! Jas with Shannen, Syl and Emily  The Wedding Couple with Syl, Alicia and Emily! Chase looks so much better now compared to his earlier days, put on abit of weight, but look alot better!  Jas and Chase being saboed by friends. But look at the lovely ending. So sweeeeeet...  The pretty Foreword ladies collection - Em, Syl, Alicia  Lisa and Ade!  Esmond, Syl, Jue, Me. It was supposed to be a pic of me and Syl...but then...there were gatecrashers!!!! ROAR.  Me, Lisa and Ade...the associates  Jessie, Alicia and Emily...  Syl and Esmond being funny...hahaha  The happy family photo! With my two bosses and Esmond!  After the wedding it was off to Yongxiang's place for some Wii. Havent Wii-ed for some time already. Talking about Yongxiang...i wished him happy birthday one day earli! Sorry!! HaHa....at least i was the first k. Need to catch up with him some time soon like what we talked about yesterday. We havent had a good talk in ages! Gotta meet Zuoming, Mabel, Renjie too. That's coming very soon. Cheers =) |
| allie ♥ 11:50 PM |
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