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| Tuesday, December 26, 2006 |
Christmas eve was not so okay...was supposed to go out....so looking forward to it...but in the end it didnt happen. Ended up staying at home rotting, while me n my bro tried to make some last min event happen. But once my supposed trip was cancelled, i had no mood to go out anymore. Guess what...i end up playing game at home...and count down at the free market. Well...good thing is at least i do have "people" to spend some moments with, the bad thing is they are not real. Well...it wasn't what i wanted. It wasn't what I expected. But what the helll....it happened. And the radio was playing Lonely Christmas at that point...adding salt to the wound. This time round...i really felt quite sad. Usually, I wouldnt mind staying at home for a quiet day indoors. But somehow, it seems like this time it felt different. I was so bored that I would jump at any chance to go out....but oh well. A fren told me to look forward to New Year's eve...but to me New Year is not the same as Christmas. Being alone at Christmas definitely makes me feel sadder....and the mood just dragged me past the Christmas holiday. Oh well.... I'm in a terrrible mood lately. Too many things i wanna do but cant. Wanna go training but cant cos of fyp commitments. Wanna play game but cant cos of fyp. Wanna go out but cant cos of fyp. Hmmm...i realise my constraints are all due to fyp...yet i cant make myself believe that everything will be alright for my fyp...cos it isnt gonna be. Gotta find some motivation from somewhere to finish the job somehow. I need something to guide me through, to help me past this stage. |
| allie ♥ 10:42 AM |
| Thursday, December 21, 2006 |
Zakumming is making me poor. 10m down due to the pots used. I hope to complete it soon. Before i go broke...haha. Been really busy these days so no time to update my blog really. Having vball training the whole day yesterday is a little too much for my body to take. And FYP is down to the crunch...it's do or die now. We have to keep working on it...no rest at all whatsoever. Been getting little sleep cos there's so many things on my mind. Getting to be a little spaced out with regards to my friends and family. But please bear with me. I hope it will be over soon. But meanwhile...ren nai yi xia ba. I'm not in a particularly good mood lately too. Very moody and easily irritated...guess it's due to the stress and lack of sleep ba. Oh well...just have to push on le...no turning back and no other alternatives.... |
| allie ♥ 11:35 AM |
| Sunday, December 10, 2006 |
Been training hard since the last two weeks, just to go Zakum for my very first party quest. A bit sad i know...since i missed out on all the previous party quests. It was very xiong, and i didnt manage to get all my usual party members. All sorts of reasons like forgot to wake up and all, resulted in us starting the party quest late, and me partying people I dunno. Starting part was difficult, cos we didnt know what to expect. Just kept healing lo, the draining part was bad....cos I couldnt really stop healing. It got better as it went on, less stressed. But the body part was xiong too. So many things to attend to, and it was lagging towards the end possibly because of the number of monsters summoned. I was knocked into Zk's body and i died. Sigh...... Wasn't the best way to die, i didnt expect it either. But so many people died, and the number of attackers left made it very difficult, and a long process to kill the body. I think i will just try again next time, with better attackers lasting the fight. DKs are the most long lasting, priests too.... and there was a bandit and a mage as well. The rest seemed to be wiped out. |
| allie ♥ 7:01 PM |
| Sunday, December 03, 2006 |
If i do, this means that i can't play ihg, isg, and possibly unable to go for ivp trainings. If i do, this means that i wont have mon-fri office hours to do my work or fyp. If i do, this means that it would be stretching my responsibilities. If I do, this could possibly mean that my fyp wont be as well done from my side. Hmm...the last one hit a nerve. I had been thinking whether it will be possible to work on my fyp while at work. I realised i cant. Firstly, office hours are fixed. Which means that I wont be able to check my emails for a full 12 hours (the co doesnt allow staff to check external email accts). Which also means i wont be able to meet anyone during office hours, which can be quite crucial for our project in this case. Ok I'm sold. It wasn't easy at first. But the decision seems easy when i write it out this way. Even though I need the money...almost $900 to be exact. It's either $900, or all whole host of things i've mentioned above, the isg, ihg, ivp, fyp, and my precious 1 month holiday. How to choose? Well, judging from the above, if I prioritise, it would seem that studies would come first, and hence fyp wins. I see money flying out of the window... |
| allie ♥ 10:53 AM |
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