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| Thursday, May 27, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': tIrEd...~*
haha...i finally managed to get my bum off the couch and went to do some exercise. Was supposed to have training two days ago....but had to do surveys.....so din go. Well well....i went to play badminton today! Wowee....finally got to work out. It felt realli good...but i ended up damn tired. Sigh...i need some sleep too...since i got up real earli today. YX asked me about the status again.....haha...not realli aniwae...more like he asked me about how i felt...i couldnt realli answer him and before i knew it...his fren adrian came along and disrupted the conversation. Oh well...cant realli blame me for not telling him now....hee..... went to do surveys yesterday too....sigh...so difficult...and i got sooooo many rejections....sadzz. But nevermind...my survey life is gonna end soon.....cos i have another job coming up next week....hopefully it will be more fun cos it will be done with mabel...yiyuan...xinyi they all. Looking forward to that....meanwhile...i have to finish all my surveys first...sighz.... |
| allie ♥ 6:17 PM |
| Wednesday, May 26, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': hApPy...~*
Hee....so happy...cos i got the Ian thorpe DVD...haha...plus a new cute keychain. Well.....he got his aunt to get the DVD from australia.....so nice. watched the DVD too...ian is soooooooooooo cute.....and soooooo perfect. Loved the DVD...haha. Feel so pampered....dunno whether it's a good or bad thing....i might get too used to this....hee. Started to do this survey job...which i realli dont like to do...but since i took up the job...i hafta do it. Sighzzz......tough work. Hope to get this over and done with and start on my singapore expo job promoting magazine subscriptions...hee. Feeling kinda hppy these days...hope this time round it last a little longer...=) |
| allie ♥ 12:18 AM |
| Sunday, May 23, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': dIsApPoiNtEd...~*
Pisces, "Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own. Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They sometimes exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually (depending on how they are aspected). They long to be recognized as greatly creative. They also dislike disciple and confinement. The nine-to-five life is not for them. Any rebellion they make against convention is personal, however, as they often times do not have the energy or motivation to battle against the Establishment. Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world where their qualities can bring mental satisfaction and sometimes, fame and financial reward for they are extremely gifted artistically. They are also versatile and intuitive, have quick understanding, observe and listen well, and are receptive to new ideas and atmospheres. All these factors can combine to produce remarkable creativity in literature, music and art. They may count among their gifts mediumistic qualities which can give them a feeling that their best work comes from outside themselves, "Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places. They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful. In their employment they are better working either by themselves or in subordinate positions. Their talents are individual in a commercial business or similar undertaking. They would be afraid to manage more than a small department, worrying always that they would fail in a crisis. They can make fair secretaries and bookkeepers. Their sympathy equips them for work in charities catering for the needy, as nurses looking after the sick and as veterinary surgeons caring for animals. As librarians or astronomers they can satisfy their mental wanderlust, and their fondness for "faraway places with strange-sounding names" may turn them into sailors or travellers. Many architects and lawyers are Pisceans, and when the creative abilities are combined with gifts of imitation and the ability to enter into the feelings of others, Pisceans find their fulfillment on the stage. Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. They may find an outlet for their creativity as caterers, and are said to make good detectives because they can imagine themselves in the place of criminals and understand how their minds would work. In technical occupations they are well employed in dealing with anaesthetics, fluids, gases and plastics. Because of their lively versatility and inability to concentrate overmuch on any one project, Pisceans often simultaneously follow more than one occupation." Had an eventful day yesterday. First went to Sentosa with the hall production people in the afternoon. Got tanned and all.....though i didnt realli want to...and an uneven tan line! That's why i dun wanna get tanned....sighzz. Didnt do much at Sentosa....played frisbee and volleyball...and went guy watching. But sadly....most of the guys were realli young and there werent much eye candy to talk about. Every girl was in a bikini and we saw quite a number of unsightly creatures there...haha...know i am kinda bad by describing them in that way but ya....saw gals like twice my size in a neon green bikini....those with no boobs trying to look at though they have boobs....and a gal with wore her shorts unbuttoned and ended up looking like she had burst her shorts. Haha...instead of looking at the guys....we were spending most of our time criticizing the girls we saw. I thought the Sentosa trip was fine....though i did feel that the first one was more fun than this. Some people we generally dont realli like came and sorta dampened our spirits but we got over it. It was fun la...on the whole...enjoyed myself pretty much. But the sun was waaaaaaaaaay too hot....it was like...scortching hot and our feet felt like they were walking on a hot plate or something. Think it was the company that made it fun. Went with people like Mabel...ger...YX...Zack...Zod...Mini me...Xinyi...Bisheng...and some others....people that get along realli well....so it was fun=). Was realli looking forward to the KTV actualli...haha....cos i love to sing! And i love to hear people sing too! Oh well....at least that is the case for CERtAIN people...haha. We went to sing KTV after the Sentosa trip. Matt and Terence came to join us..so did Bisheng's gf. It was the first time i see a room so packed with people. We had like....14-15 people at one point...and that was when our hall's number one hated person came. Sighzzz.....she looked like she wasnt very happy to join us....she could have not come what....her presence doesnt matter to us anyway. Haha....and we never realli acknowledge her presence aniwae...guess she felt kinda left out too....=P. KTV was fun too.....Bisheng and Matt sang realli well...so the "Suan Mei Zhis" sorta acted as their fan club members....waving lightsticks in the form of handphones with backlight along with the tempo of the songs. Haha.....damn high....and kinda stupid....but it was fun. Love to hear Bisheng and Matt sing....realli....though BS was kinda off yesterday. So was Matt.....but i still love to hear them sing...they sing soooooo well. Some other person was tryin very hard to impress with his vocals....well i shant name who...hiakz....yeah....and it incured the wrath of many....almost pressed the stop button to the song whenever that person sang. Not onli that person cant sing....but always try to sing together with Matt.....sighzzz.....that accentuates the differences even more...haha. BS's gf can sing pretty decently too..first time i actualli hear her sing....cool. It was definitely a day full of activities. After KTV...we all went to my house for a mahjong session. 8 of us in total. Wow...i havent had so many people in my house for a mahjong session before. We had our usual mahjong kakis....matt mini me YX and XY....plus mabel ger and RJ....who came to play. It was realli hot in the house...i mean the temperature....sighzz....cos no aircon in the room we were playing in...realli sorry about that. Hopefully it wasnt too bad for them. I realli didnt wanna go to YX's house for mahjong yesterday night.....thats why i made them come to my house...haha. We had two mahjong tables....a gambler's table and a training table....spent time at both actualli....but it was at the training table that we totally went wild. Haha....dunno what happened but suddenly everyone was going crazy....talking nonsense..and acting in weird ways. It was realli entertaining though...mabel with her double cheese cheese burger thingy and ger with her portrayal of a filipino maid. Had lotsa fun laughing at them. XY YX and Matt were their usual cold selves...haha...cant help it la. Also talked about palmistry...which was interesting. Learnt a bit of stuff.....but still wanna find out more. Learnt that i'm supposed to have two boyfriends in my life....but then...it doesnt seem realli true cos i already had two before...and a third one. Learnt that my boyfriend or husband wont be too good looking...sighz....i hope it wont be true...haha....refuse to believe that aniwae. Yeah....and the sex drive thingy.....palmistry is interesting....maybe i shall go and read up on it. Realli had a great day yesterday...dunno about the rest but at least i had fun. Didnt sing too nicely at KTV too..cos i had a sore throat....but i had fun listening to nice singing!!! Matt got into the finals of the 93.3 singing competition...cool! Good for him...guess it would be a moral boost for him. Got to know some things about other people thru palm reading too......which was quite cool...like XY's supposedly good looking boyfriend....haha. Yeah....but by the end of the day...i was dead beat cos i onli got to sleep at around 8 am this morning. A full day of activities from 1230 yesterday till 8 am today...wow......havent spent so much time together with mates like this before too. Realli hope that there could be something like this again....with more people...probably those from my hall OG too....like ZM and XM...and minus CERTAIN people...haha. think i shant be so bad animore.....shall keep the good memories and erase the bad.......hee....... |
| allie ♥ 9:47 PM |
| Wednesday, May 19, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': BroKe...~*
Oopz....it has almost been a week since i last updated my blog. Yeah....i have been that busy. Ever since my last blog post on thurs.....i started on another job on friday morning all the way to sunday night...or rather...monday morning 130 am. The three days have been spent in the heart of orchard road....outside ngee ann city...trying to sell t shirts and stationery sets to the public which will later be sent to the Sri Lankan kids. It is tiring work.....imagine standing under the great sun like a full 11 hours a day. On top of that we had to actively ask for donations for the Sri Lanka kids....and haf to face a lot of rejections too. Yeah it was tiring....but the money was reasonable....plus we did slack quite a bit in between...doing shopping and all...haha. Well...there was this super drama on the last night of work when we were supposed to get our pay. Turned out that the guy didnt have enough cash to pay all of us on the last day of work...which he had promised. Almost wanted to take away a few hours of our pay and wanted to delay a part of the payment as well. Some of the poor people had to take their money in bags of coins...in $1 and 50 cent denominations....haha...luckily it wasnt me. One of the guys in my gang got sorta pissed with the way things are going and decided to call the police to ensure that we will eventually get paid. i was like...wow.....cant believe things are taking such a dramatic turn. And yeah....the police came.....and the guy who was in charge of the event was kinda afraid....got his mum here with more cash.....but still didnt have enough to pay our group...so his mum signed a cash cheque for us to collect our money the next day. That guy who called the police....well...i would call him ah beng...since he called himself that...haha. Initially when he went over to talk to the guy in charge....i was quite afraid that a fight would break out or someting....or probably the whole thing would turn ugly. But surprisingly...everything turned out fine....and he happened to be a guy who can talk proper sense into the person in charge....even gave that guy face by talking one on one instead of bringing a group to talk to him. I had to take my hat off him. was quite surprised.....that things actually went our way in the end....got ALL our pay without a single cent deducted.....and everything was fine. Realli had him to thank i think..... After the dramatic finale to our 3-day stint....we went to YX's house to play mahjong. Matt came back....so we finally have our fourth ka!! Yay....mahjong wasnt that fun la.....cos we were all sleepy and kinda tired...but it was still good. I won some money and so did YX....so i treat Matt and YX to breakfast at Mac's. There goes all my winnings lo....hee...but it's okay la.....cos i won Matt's $$ quite a number of times already and it's time to give some back. No sleep for the whole night......and went to a survey interview after our mahjong session. Was dead tired by the end of whatever we went for that day...haha....cant realli remember also. Got home at 3pm. Slept till 7 pm. Ate dinner...and slept at 9pm till the next day. Haha...i was DAT tired...realli. Met up with my old friend yesterday. Havent met him for like...almost a year already...cant believe that. Went for KTV..which was good...before going shopping for presents.....and Matt's belated bday pressie. Wanted to buy either a shirt or some perfume for him. Messaged Matt to ask him which kinda perfume he liked...he said he dun use perfume and asked me whether i needed his company. Oh no...i thought...i was buying his pressie and he wanted to come down.....dunno what to do. Luckily.....i told him i was going immediately at that point of time and he had something on then. Whew.....luckily he didnt come.....but then again...he could have helped and i would have gotten something he would realli like....hmmmm. My friend convinced me that i should buy the perfume...though i dont realli know why....and i bought the perfume...hope he would like it. Spent like a whole lot yesterday...buying pressies......and a wallet for myself...sigh...there goes my pay. But that spending is necessary...cos it was already a belated bdae pressie and my wallet is already in unusable condition...haha. Guess that justifies my spending huh.... Went home for a while....then he came over to find me...out of the blue. Was surprised that he came...and dunno for what reason either. He gave me flowers again....so sweet....so pretty...hee.......kinda liked them. But then it was like...flowers for no reason....haha...but whatever it is...i liked them...pink roses ma....haha. Ya....asked him why he came...and he said he missed me or something...haha.....found it kinda amusing. Sat in the car and talked for about 1 and a half hours.....i basically slept thruout la.....cos i was a little tired too...haha.....after that....he went off....and me....to sleep at home. Everyone seems to think that we two are an item.....YX and Xinyi thought so...and even grilled me on it during the mahjong session. Sighzzz.......but no...we are not....contrary to what everyone thinks. He's been realli nice....keep offering to drive me around and helping me out with stuff.....but yeah.....still status quo. He still gets jealous over YX....cos i'm kinda close to him too....oh well.....cant stand that..... Dunno whether i should go clubbing today...wanna watch AMI and feeling kinda lazeeee....wanna stay home and pei my mummy too...cos i have been going out for the past 5 days already........didnt c them much....so i think it's highly likely that i wudnt go. But ger wants me to go and my fren wants to join us later in the night...sighz....how....... |
| allie ♥ 10:43 AM |
| Thursday, May 13, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': sPLiTtinG HeAdacHe...~*
Finally went clubbing yesterday night! After a looooong clubbing drought. It was pretty fun with peiwen...mabel and her frens. Went to Chinablack to get free drinks...then went to zouk. Didnt like Zouk though...cos of all the ah bengs and their funny hand actions. Loved phuture's music.....and we got a pretty good space to dance in...at least there were some space...miraculously. It was fun at phuture....and thought yesterday wasnt as crowded as i had expected. Cos the last time i went it was like dead packed and i couldnt even squeeze into phuture. Wanted to go to China black today...cos it was our hall bash...think everyone would be there....and i kinda haven seen them since two weeks ago. Mabel is going...wanted to go with her...but i'm having this splitting headache again...sighzzz. And i'm kinda tired from yesterday and i gotta get up for work early tomorrow morning. I guess i would have tp give this whole thing a miss. I kinda like China black though...music's not bad...cept that it repeats itself towards the end....the only minus point. Feel like going devils bar....r n b there is good too...guess will hafta wait....sighzz.... Went to watch Troy today!! So glad.....have been waiting for it for soooo long...cos i wanted to watch orlando bloom! But in the end....i came out of the cinema in love with brad pitt!!!! He is sooooooooooooOOOOooooo GoRgEoUs!!! Those blue eyes....i could just drown in them....and that body...those biceps....ooooh.........thinking of it just makes me go gaga all over again. In comparison....Orlando is just a young insolent boy.....who acts rashly and do not have any brains to talk about (in the show...that is). Yeah....i am saying that about my belov-ed orlando. Haha....cos he seemed so immature in the show!! I still like him though....but i prefer the image of droolsome legolas to this young immature Paris in troy. Brad pitt is soooooooo cute!!! And i had a goood view of his butt in the show too...haha. There were so many naked women too....well well.......if that is what greece is all about...haha. Troy is a realli good show. It started a little slow...but not as slow as Lord of the rings 1....and before u start to get bored...the action started. It was realli exciting and captivating...and the war scenes took up the bulk of the time. Show revolves around Archilles, an amazingly strong warrior of SpArTa, who has the ability to kill anyone who crosses his path. Amazing strength....cool moves....and what speed at which he runs....oohh....charming. And that queen of Sparta is reaaaaaaallli pretty!! Her eyes are gorgeous too. think this show is realli full of gorgeous people......eye candy...hee. Orlando fought in the show too.....but that onli showcases how cowardly Paris is.....one who doesnt have the courage to pull himself up after a fall...and only manages to crawl back to his good old brother...who always defends him. He had to depend on his brother to kill the enemy which he had proposed a duel to. Sighz......gave me a poor impression on Orlando.......far from that i had of legolas!! haha......better keep legolas in my mind instead of this....or poor orlando will be out of favour soon. Brad pitt is damn gorgeous la.......but he......haha...dunno if i shud say this...oh well....he died in the end.....but the way he died was quite glorious still i feel. But the thing is...he was killed by Paris!! Of all people.....the cowardly Paris!!! Wrongly killed him too...sighz....shot him with so many arrows.....my dear Brad....died.....but died in the arms of his favoured woman.....and died so nicely without much blood on his face. Died a graceful death except that the position wasnt too nice...haha.....sighzzz. No wonder he wanted to take on the role.......quite sure it would put him back in favour with all the women in the world.....haha. went to watch with him.....been spending quite some time with him too....like three days in a row already. Didnt get pissed today...amazing!! Haha...cos most of the time i was having this headache that i was trying to hard not to let it affect me. He was nice today too....sent me home...though he didnt drive. The only negative part was that he was a little late today...and that he wore a shirt that is a little stained......a big nono when one is coming out of the house....shud be restricted to wearing within one's own house. Yeah......went well today.......so nothing much to complain about! Haha.....yesterday everyone was asking me whats going on between the two of us.......and i wasnt realli ready to tell.....so i just shrugged it all off. Let them wonder all they want...haha......just let things be lo i think. Getting realli broke...luckily starting work tomorrow again...so at least i have some money in the near future. Better find some permanent job soon...cos i need a lot more $$ than what is coming in right now. |
| allie ♥ 7:46 PM |
| Wednesday, May 12, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': LaZy.....~*
Went shopping yesterday....met up with ger before meeting him to shop for his stuff. Saw nice skirt at Zara...loved it.....but bought a skirt at Zara the day before already....so didnt buy this skirt. Somemore...it didnt have the skirt in the size i wanted...sigh...but i loved that skirt....=(. Met him to go shopping.....but throughout the whole shopping trip...i didnt talk much to him.....can say that i sorta ignored him the whole time. I know he was upset....angry...whatsoever....can tell from his face that he was unhappy...but not becos ger was there...but becos i totally ignored him. I feel so bad......i agree that i didnt pay much attention to him....sigh. He said i didnt talk to him the whole time....well...i tried...but he didnt exactly talk much too.....and he could have talked to me too ma....so it wasnt entirely my fault. Sigh...but i did neglect him...and it made him feel realli bad....and made him think more again. After shopping....he went home....and i continued shopping with ger cos she was waiting for her bf to come. Asked me to join them for movie....plus him too.....and i agreed. Had dinner at Ajisen...the ramen there is fabulous!! realli....never tasted such good ramen mee before.......and i finished every bit of it...so unlike the usual me..haha...dat's how gd it is. He came to join us for the movie...but didnt look too happy. I dun understand why he came when it was obvious that he was unhappy...and pulled a long face thruout the show....except towards the end. During the show...i kept asking him whats wrong...he said he was fuming...asked him why...he said he dun wanna say. I knew that he was angry with me...but acted as if i didnt know....acted ignorant...cos i knew he will tell me in the end. He was nicer to me towards the end of the show....sorta mellowed a little....didnt know what he was thinking la.....but guess he sorta forgotten a little. After the show...when the four of us are already making our way towards the mrt station to catch the last train...and me and him were trailing behind ger and bf.....he suddenly caught me and told me he drove. Haha....should have told me long ago ma.....we came all the way down from 7th floor to basement 2 and then he actually parked at 6th floor without saying a word till we reached the MRT station. He said he would see me home.....sorta can tell that he wanted some time alone...but still....dun think it's good of him to see me home while leaving ger and bf to take train home....so i asked whether he wanted to give them a lift. He said anything....though can tell he was a little reluctant...and i told him that if he wanted...he should be the one to tell them...not me. Haha....that's why he took so long to tell u guys he drove ger. Thought it would be good for him to drive them to eunos...but he let them off at Kallang instead.....think he wanted some time to talk that's why. Paiseh ger.....that's why i didnt insist that he send u guys to eunos. Think he was quite upset already...so didnt wanna make him do things this way. Hope u dun mind! Yeah.....on our way....asked him what was wrong....he got defensive...and said that he didnt wanna say. So i didnt ask anymore lo. Just let him be. When i reached home....he seemed alright already....then he messaged me a funny message....haha....then messaged me another saying that he wanna take back the earlier message. Weird...i feel....so i asked him why. He said that that afternoon he felt that he lost me....and that he felt like he was being played a fool of. He said i never gave him any sign of how i feel or whatsoever.....oh well...just let him say lo. Not in the mood to argue or whatsoever....plus i felt kinda guilty for the afternoon so i didnt say much either. Dunno why too but after letting out everything...he said he was kinda childish to feel that way....and that he's fine already. Haha....dunno whats going on. I said that i did go out with him when he asked me and came down from my house at 3am during his birthday...didnt i. Think he felt guilty after hearing that....and said he knew. He said perhaps it was imbalance that caused his anger and whatever negative feelings that day. Said that he was alright. Hmmmm......realli wonder what was going on.....but in the end...everything came out fine. Glad that it ended that way. Read his blog early this morning......saw a super duper loooooong complain piece about that afternoon. He was real angry....but after reading it...i feel that it's kinda funny....cos it sorta sounded a little like me.....cept that it sorta without any basis. He kept thinking along his own line of thought....never stopped to ask me how i felt or why was i acting this way. So he was just interpreting all the things in his own way. Haha.....thought i was kinda cute...and funny....so i laughed the whole thing off. Cos after all...everything's fine again. He's not angry anymore and that''s good. Asked me to go to his house to watch movies. Told him it would feel realli weird....and wanted him to come over instead. but my house got realli hot....so i changed my mind and went over for the air con....haha. watched Shrek and slept a little while he was doing his jigsaw. He was realli nice today.....kept pouring water for me and giving me a jacket in case i feel cold...and keep asking me to lie on the sofa instead of sleeping in a sitting position. Drove me home after that....and said that if i wanted a lift back home after clubbing tonight can always call him. Would liked to have a lift home...but always didnt dare to ask cos i dun wanna make it seem like i'm using him or something. Realised that he always drives his frens around....and that his frens always ask him to drive them around and he always obliges. Well....perhaps i can do that too...but still...it doesnt feel right....still dun wanna sorta "use" him to drive me around. Well...it's nice of him and i appreciate it....glad that he offered. I kinda like things the way they are not...peaceful.....not getting pissed.....and he's acting better than before....at least in certain areas. He always complained on his blog that he doesnt wanna conform to my guy expectations...but i do see some changes. Hopefully that's permanent....if so....that would be good=). Oh well....gotta decide whether to go clubbing later...think all my friends would be there. But feeling lazy and tired now. See how it turns out i guess....though i'm kinda itching for some action...hee... |
| allie ♥ 7:01 PM |
| Sunday, May 09, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': tIrEd......~*
So long havent updated my blog!!!! I realised....haha....well well...today's is just another day for me...nothing exciting i think....usual day at work. It was quiet....as of lately....but did manage to sell quite some stuff still. There were a lot of Thai customers today...and japanese......and i learnt alot from the seniors today....stuff i didnt realise before. Last time i used to hear from one of the seniors that our prices at DFs were either equal or lower than the prices outside...realised that wasnt the case...instead.....our goods are definitely guaranteed genuine...that's all....but prices might be higher. Now i noe...haha...kinda late.....but still...better late than never. Slacking day as usual...and talked alot to the colleagues today.....one still asked me how many babies i wanna have...haha...dat's finda FAR away ya noe....i told her that....and she said it wun be long before the time comes...oh well...she's right....but i dun wish to grow up=P. And clarice got grilled on whether she had a boyfriend....when she insisted no...they didnt accept her answer...haha....wonder what's up with all of them today...asking this kinda questions...hmmm. Happened to know that quite a few of them today are doing their last day of work already...cos they finally have a day off...which is tomorrow...haha.....ironic.....but kinda sad....cos lesser young people around. Hope to see them soon.... Went to shop at mango today......it happened to be a wrong choice...haha....know why.....cos they clothes are soooooooo nice! I hate to shop when i have no $$...but i just couldnt resist a peek into the shop....sighz....and i saw so many nice things that i would looooooove to have. Sigh........just waiting for $$ to drop from the sky right now. suddenly...i love working at orchard...the heart of everything...be it nice food...nice clothes...or nice people...haha......but it does no good to ur pockets though..... Made plans to go out with frens.....perhaps can go for another KTV session on tuesday!! Haha...kinda mad...but yeah.....=)...with different people each time though! That day on friday night i went KTV with YX...xinyi....joe....terence and mini me. Got a huge shock when i saw Joe.....he and xinyi seems to be back together again...hmmm......wonder wonder...but i'm not surprised.....just that it came out of the blue...at least for me. But still happy for them...hee...guess it good for them too! YX going hongkong...jio me along...but i couldnt cos he said latest gotta fly by sunday. But the irritating thing is...in the end he booked the air tickets and he's only flying on tuesday!!! Argghh...i could have gone lo....sighzzzz. KTV two days in a row....happier after the second session cos at least i sounded a little better...haha......it is supposed to be therapeutic ma...so if i have a good session i wud feel alot better. Went to YX's house after the KTV session....and played mahjong......i slept like a log man.....haha......and they were trying to desperately to wake me up...and i refused to.....could hear Joe cursing and swearing......hahah......and i felt tickling too...but just couldnt be bothered to wake up la....=P. supposed to meet ger tmr to pass her her pressie...wonder if she will like it...cos didnt buy what i was supposed to buy initially lehz....hmmm......cos couldnt make up my mind! Sigh.....went to try Island kiss again today...realli like candy leh!!! Like the candy floss.......dunno how it wud be like to walk around smelling like that....would love to see people try...hha. Made plans to shop with him too......well...he asked me to go ma.....though last time i didnt realli have a good outing shopping with him...but i guess i will sstill go. Prefer to shop with YX...cos at least our tastes in men's clothes are more similar.....mr crabby likes polo tees....at least it seems like he does....kinda uninteresting to me.....so i couldnt realli comment on that lo. Prefer more interesting men clothing.....like shirts with prints.....rather than plain polos....cos it seems kinda boring after a while. Supposed to meet up with Rubin too....sighzzz....but wait for him to set the date lo...sooooooo long nv see him liao.......dunno how many months.....realli wanna see this old fren of mine too. And Karen...missed her too.....well....but not so much la....hee. Tomorrow's my last day of work......hopefully it will be a good day. Realli liked working at the perfume counter...not nec DFs though.......cos i love perfumes! And being in the midst of it just make me soooooo happy=). Recommending perfumes to customers are also realli fun......love to try all the perfumes...hee...tomorrow last day.....guess it will be another boring day.....but last day to enjoy my perfumed world! Haha.......and hope tomorrow's shopping outing will be fine too....dun want to be pissed off again....unless he insist on making me so....haha=P. |
| allie ♥ 8:26 PM |
| Thursday, May 06, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': KiNdA dOwn.......~*
Dunno why...but always seem to be feeling down these days. Today's KTV and lunch with ger did perk me up a bit. Seems like i always need people around me to be happier these days.....whenever i'm left alone...i feel.....well.....a little down...in a sense aniwae. Realli feel like going on a shooooopppping spree...but desperately in need of some cash$$$$$ for that....sighz....and cash is realli hard to come by...especially when i'm not in the mood to work. Need to find some excitement and motivation to go work. Maybe i need a change of environment? Haha.......that's just a lame excuse la..... Well well....was realli looking forward to meeting up with the old frens today. Had a nice chat and lunch with ger.....before going for KTV.....it was fun la....cept that i hate my singing today...think it realli sucked. Hate days when i cant seem to sing properly...my voice came out rather throaty today...lack feeling.....lack range.....and lack change. Sighz......but at least i dun haf a sore throat...which is rather rare for me after a KTV session. Think i realli need to update my list of songs too. By the way...think ger and peg sang realli well....they realli improved a lot in their singing man...it seems....haha....good for you guys...=). And peg.....finally can hear her singing voice...her real singing voice...cos usually she sings realli soft and her voice sound like a young child's....haha...always told her that....but now....it came out very clear and girly and sweet........huge change it seems...but for the better! Hee....and ger's voice was stronger than before it seems...very good too. Somehow...i do get upset when i'm not very happy at the KTV session. I kinda go a little high towards the end...but still....very unhappy cos i din sing the way i wud have liked. Sighzzz........ I kinda came to a conclusion......about the previous issue. Hmmm...think i'm kinda "right" to be unhappy over his treatment of me....cos if he treated me the way he did...it wouldnt make ani difference between me going out with my galfrens and going out with a guy. Because if i were to carry my own bags...buy my own food...and foot the bill separately with my other frens...and go home myself without ani other thingy....it realli wouldnt be ani different compared to going out with the gals..... Had a sorta "talk" with him yesterday nite......told him about all the stuff i was unhappy about...he ended up defending himself....as i had expected. He hated being compared to YX....which i knew.....but still compared him with YX.....cos i was unhappy......and purposely did that to spite him....haha.....i know i am being bad.....but oh well....i was unhappy ma. And he sorta gave me the excuse that he would forget to ask the girls to give him a call when they reach home and whatsoever...which i refused to accept cos i said that that wasnt supposed to be a formality. If one was genuinely concerned about another's safety or welfare....one would NOT forget to do such things....hence it is obvious that it wasnt very important to him and that he onli treat the whole procedure as a mere formality....which i wasnt very happy about. Oh well.........he also said that he preferred to ask whether i need any help with the bags instead of "grabbing and insisting" on carrying them....haha...he misquoted my words again...as usual....and i told him i hate being misquoted. Didnt realli accept that defence too........but forgotten what i said. Yeah....and he said that there is a difference between pampering girls and serving them head and foot. Wah....cant believe this. If by not doing the stuff i mentioned was onli pampering then he was waaaaaaaaaaaaay wrong man.........and by doing that it means serving head and foot? Not by any chance lo...... I just told him that to me....the difference between the two types would mean whether i am going out with gals or guys...and that if he didnt do those i mentioned...it wouldnt make any difference between going out with the gals and him. Haha...and when i talked about the comparison btw him and my guyfrens...he said that the difference is what makes things diff between us....haha....i feel that is kinda funny. And i told him that that shudnt be the difference.....cos that is the basic courtesy expected of guys.....if that was the difference that was supposed to be between us.....then what is the diff between him and the other gals. The difference is supposed to be in other areas and not that. Argued for quite awhile...then he said that he realli didnt feel like saying anything more...cos whatever he said it would seem like he's making excuses for himself. Well....i just summed up what i was trying to say.....and went to sleep without waiting for a reply. Ended on a pretty bad note i guess......sighzz. but somehow....i feel that that has to be said....if i hadnt been said.....things would have accumulated and could have made things worse i feel. I think he doesnt think that he has any problems with his bahaviour and all. But i think he does. Perhaps i was too quick to judge....and unfair to compare him with other guys....but somehow...and sooner or later.....he still has to do all those....or else...I have no idea how i can live with that. If anything has to go wrong...it has to be now. whatever that happens later....or comes out of this.....guess i'll just wait and see....dun realli wanna think...and dun realli wanna go correct anything......just let things be....kinda tired liao........all up to him right now......sighhzzz |
| allie ♥ 10:55 PM |
"Take a deep breath, and let it out slowly. Whatever that was that you've been going through lately is over -- or will be as of this evening. In the meantime, keep reminding yourself of how strong you are." "Passion rules your life. Determination gets you out of your chair and into the streets. This time you're going to make certain opportunities work for you. Although your mission requires heightened focus, you're not a single-issue kind of person. Your attention span widens to take in entire new worlds without losing your grip on the one that you currently inhabit. You read other people's minds before they even open their mouths. This can be a little unnerving, but it makes you a lot more efficient. The boring stuff steps cheerfully aside for the things that matter. Romance Let your partner do the driving or pick the movie. Anything is just fine with you as long as you're in it together. This is also how you learn more about the preferences of your sweetie." Oh ya...realised he has bad spelling too...haha....the "neck" from his blog....very funny...hiakz... bad bad me...oops |
| allie ♥ 12:21 AM |
| Wednesday, May 05, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN': bLuEe...~*
haha...ger ar....yes yes u do fit my expectations for a guy.....ALL except for the exterior part? Which i havent gone to it....haha.....and u KNOW the first thingy...need to be taller than me. Haha......if i do get sick of guys one day....u would probably be 1st choice liao.....aniwae...u R my les partner already!!! haha...not counted....=P A fren of mine was sorta responding to my previous previous blog post.....and said that it wasnt very fair of me to compare him with my guyfrens. Oh well....the reason why is because even if my guy frens already treat me like that...i expect equal treatment...if not more from him ya noe. and u asked why not i get hitched to my guy frens instead if i prefer them to mr crabby....it's not that i prefer them to him......that is not the case......it's just that he lack certain qualities or rather.....he fails to do certain things that i expect of a guy....doesnt mean that he's inferior to my other guy frens in other sense. I mean...there's a good and bad side to everyone...yeah.....and his negative one happens to be his lack of gentlemanly qualities. But comparing him with my other guy frens.....dat was because they are all like....similar ages....uni people...and yet there are huge differences in treatment...thats why i think that realli shudnt be. Have been thinking of why there is such a difference....went back to our loooooong talk in the midst of the exams. Oh well......reason cud be due to his lack of dating experience. He might not admit it...but i can tell....as usual. Seriously....he onli had 1 girlfriend before for two months...the rest were just on and off stuff.....and the last gf also complained about his lack of gentlemanly behaviour. Though that can be one reason.....but somehow i also think that these actions i expect come from the heart...though they can be learned.....but mostly cos of their character. I know i complain alot about him....and i do hate certain qualities about him....but i do like some other qualities about him too....like how he always cheers me up when i'm down...and always offer me comfort when i need it....always had the right words to comfort me....unlike some of my other frens who can make things worse. That's why usually there arent any major complaints unless we go out or something. I realli wanna tell him whatever i'm thinking of right now.....but dun think it's the right time...being in the midst of exams. Then again...dunno whether i shud....cos no point telling him and getting him to change right.....i mean...he might change cos i want him to and not because he wwanted to himself? Then that wouldnt be what i want....the change doesnt come from the heart. Makes me think back again....remember i complained about shaun's ungentlemanly behaviour before also? Even he will message me asking whether i'm home...haha...even he does it lo. So somehow....i would realli like to find out what's going on in his mind leh.....why is it that he doesnt seem to notice such things. He does have a certain impression on himself....and does NOT take hints....haha...whenever i say something...he thinks i'm referring to YX....when i'm actually referring to he himself....haha. Oh well....i do think some of the qualities i expect are definitely important in a guy...at least some. But these can be learned.......he does learn fast....like when i told him about what YX does with my bags or shopping bags...he immediately changed his behaviour....though that was funny...haha....and it felt kinda forced....but hopefully he does realise that there needs to be a permanent change in the behaviour. Yes yes...i know i have been complaining alot about him....but other than those things i complain about....he does treat me very well. Except when whenever he does things that realli get on my nerves....they sorta undo everything good that he did in the past.....knowing my character.....but when the whole thing subsides....i will start thinking objectively again. It's all these highs and lows that realli make me unable to decide what i realli want. But in this case i wud probably just give it a last chance......if nothing can be done about this then i would just forget it. If i cant get what i want from someone....then no point dragging the whole thing right. And i dont think i am realli asking for alot....it's not like i want him to always give in to me and be dictated by me...and be on call all the time...or be tall dark handsome rich with 5 Cs or anything like dat ma......just expecting the basic things i usually find in the guys around me. "....my weekend wasn't fantastic too k...keep doin the silliest things when im wif u...sighz. Somtimes i really wonder where dat stupid brain has gone too.Guys...if there's one thing to learn : Learn how to be natural in front of gers....they juz have dat neck to notice whether u r really tryin to be sumtg u ain't....yeah n datrz a fact." This is what i got from his supposed blog. It seems like he does do the silliest things whenever he's out with me. But i dont think it's an excuse to do so. Girls like to be taken care of and to do so....one must take care of oneself first rite? He doesnt seem to do that in the first place.....and he better or else i wud be realli put off when my limit of tolerance wears off. Sighzz......i do think these things can be solved.....though i'm not realli hoping.....but just waiting for things to sorta come into place by itself. Whether they realli do will depend on him lo....c how it goes i guess. Seems like he realli does remember what i said...and if it does continue.......hmmm.......dun wish to think.....just wait...and c how.... I think the least he cud do is to help carry bags and all......and seeing me home or at least call me to make sure i'm home and all...and to help me get tickets...order food n stuff.....yeah.... Do agree that he does take my safety for granted....hate to think about that...but yeah...it seems like he does. That realli shudnt be......sighzzzz..... Somehow....i think i'm making him rather unconfident n insecure about himself....at least thats from what i see. He tries to look confident and put up sorta like...a front in front of me....but sadly....i can always tell. Thats why i always tell him to just be natural and not try too hard....cos it always makes things worse. Also that's why i feel like i cant realli judge him objectively...cos he's not realli being himself.....and that wudnt be fair. I'm complaining cos of my own expectations of his behaviour....of his lack of qualities i expect. So he does not fulfill some of the criteria i do expect. But then again i wonder if im realli being fair to him cos he might be acting that way because of some other reason and not because he dun want to. Sigh....dats why i realli dunno..... feel like im not making sense here....cant think properly...dun wish to think either.....guess will just say whatever that needs to be said and let things take it course? Perhaps ger....u r rite....that i probably shud just look for another guy who does fit the criteria....but then....he might lack some other qualities too....something he may have. Guess it's a give n take situation.....unlesss i meet the perfect guy? Haha...wonder when will it be....hmmm......waiting and waiting. And if u do realise...i complain about every other guy fren too......different stuff in different cases...except that for his case i complain more cos i spend quite some time with him. But his problem.....i do think it's rather big....cos it seems like it onli lacks in him...while not in the others.....hmmmm.....but oh well...as i said....i wud just say things that need to be said and let things take its course lo...make sense? Well.....dun make sense animore it seems.....haha...heck la. Excited about KTV tomorrow.....but after that...starting work again...sighz......feel like slackin....but once i think of the money...it perks me up again. aha.......cos i still wanna make a trip overseas ma....my motivation to work.....hope everyone enjoys ktv tomorrow.....yay....going to sing..........even matt realised i have been talking alot abt ktv these days...haha...shows how excited i am. Hope tomorrow will be a goooooooood day....hee =) |
| allie ♥ 11:18 PM |
*~...fEeLiN: bOrEd...~*
Haha....my fren posted this on frenster....hmmm.....interesting....related to my previous posting...so posted this here.....haha 26 ThInGs A sWeEt GuY wOuLd Do 1. Know how to make you smile when you are down. 2. Try to secretly smell your hair BUT you always notice. 3. Stick up for you but still be respectful of your independence. 4. Give you the remote control during the game. 5. Come up behind you, put his arms around you, squeeze you tightly against his chest, and whisper softly into your ear 6. Play with your hair. 7. His hands will always find yours. 8. Be cute when he really wants something. 9. Offer you plenty of massages. 10. Dance with you even if he feels like a dork. 11. Never run out of love. 12. Be funny, but knows when to be serious. 13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious. 14......... Be patient when you take forever to get ready. 15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts. 16. Smile alot. 17. Plan a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally do just b/c he knows it means alot to you. 18. Appreciate you. 19. Help others out. 20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1. 21......... Always give you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each other's company- even when friends are watching. 22. Sing even if he can't 23. Have a creative sense of humor. 24. Stare at you. 25. Call for no reason 26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs just b/c he loves you enough to quit!! Those in bold = realli important!! haha....nah.....some of them la...oh well.....hee.... |
| allie ♥ 1:25 PM |
| Tuesday, May 04, 2004 |
fRoM StUdYinG .... tO wOrKiNg...wHeN cAn I rEsT...
*~...MoOd: SaDzZz...~*
tiReD........today seems real tiring...dunno why. Worked at level 4 today...business was really good.....in the morning....then it started getting quiet. After that...got transferred to level 2 again......but business sux there...even the seniors was just walking around idling. Customers today didnt realli buy....as compared to those of yesterday....yeah...so lidat lo.... Went out with him on Monday for dinner....went to marche. Well...didnt expect him to pay...though i would have liked him to.....and he didn't...as usual. He pissed me off again....this time round.....said some things that shud not have been said to girls.....i dun wish to repeat it...he shud noe what. And somemore....what he said is not the true reflection of the truth....so i was even more pissed. Irritated...always like to assume things....think that he know everything....and like to dismiss things instead of talking it out. I showed him my pissed face.....and ignored him abit.....then i told him...."why do u always say the wrong things at the wrong time". He went quiet. Knew he was thinking about what i said. I said him what he was thinking....why was he stoning.....he said no...nothing. Rubbish....i hate it whenever he try to avoid talking things like that face to face. Hate his courage................and guts. He got none to speak of. Especially when i ask....he better tell me...or else i will get even more pissed. Thinking about this just made me all flare up again. Know how i noe that he was thinking about it? Cos he called me at night to talk about it. Idiot....he messaged me initially to ask me to go online to talk over msn. I refused to...giving some stupid reason about not wanting to wake up my brother while using the computer....when the computer obviously wasnt in my brother's room. Haha. Yeah.....and i said......u want u call me...i'm not going online. Haha...seems like i can be a real pain at times...but i dun think i'm in the wrong to do that this time. I hate his guts....i realli do. He called me...said he got things to tell me......then he said..."Allie....i think i'm scared of you". Haha......i said...."yeah i know...why?" He said...."i dunno how to say". I blew my top again....."why is it that u know how to say over msn and not over the phone? I hate it whenever you do that....it doesnt make sense." Then he tried to say...put whatever he wanted to say into words....but just cant do it...then he told me "I just can't put into words....think i will tell u when i know how". Pengz......damn pissed already by now. Then i said "Alright then". He said "Take care...bye". I slammed down the phone after saying Bye. Seems like i still have aloooooot to complain. Oh well.....first thing......he did not ask me whether i wanted food when he went to get his....which a guy should ALWAYS do. Secondly.....he also never offer to pay first then get me to pay him back. Thirdly, he left my bag at the table and when to look for me when i was buying my food....duhhhhhh. Fourth, he ASKED whether i needed help with my bags....only after i carried for quite a long time. Fifth, he always dunno where he want to go. Sixth, he didnt know where he should for the movie (will elaborate later). Seven, he didnt offer to send the girl home....didnt even offer...but i expected that...cos of some reasons will elaborate later too. Eigth, didnt send girl home, neither did he ask the girl to call him when she reach home.....and he didnt call the girl to c whether she is home either. Ninth, it is sooooooo obvious that the girl is pissed and he didnt even ask about it. Just kept quiet....it sucks. Haha...talking to him on msn right now......onli giving one word answers...kinda enjoying it....but onli becos i'm in the one word mood....after complaining about him for soooooo long. Hiakz. Right.....a guy...should ALWAYS pick up the bill. i mean ALWAYS. And wait for the girl to offer to pay...then u can decide whether to accept. And knowing me...i would ALWAYS offer to pay...unless the guy said it was his treat already. Besides....a guy should ALWAYS hold the girl's bags for her....unless the girl said it wasnt necessary. When he asked whether i need any help with the bags....I said..."duh...this kinda thing need to ask meh".......he could onli afford the lame reason..."better ask ma.....need to be courteous abit". I rolled my eyes...and said" Well...YX will always say..."i get that for you"...and if i refuse....he will say..."no....i will get that for you". Haha.......i told him that.........and he took my bags for me. Went to watch movie after that.......after buying the tickets......he held the tickets....and he walked in the wrong direction...away from the direction we were suppossed to go.....before i decide to ask him....cinema number? Then he was like..."huh....?". Then i asked again...."which cinema?" Then he said...."5" Haha....i asked...."So where is cinema 5?" He looked in front...then looked behind.....and gave me the sheepish face. I gave him my pissed off look again........haha...turned around...and walked back. When we sat down in the cinema.......i told him...."I realli wonder where's your brain today". hahaha..........so fun to make fun of him....but he neva fails to piss me off whenever we go out.....and it made me realise some things to....that he does lack certain critical stuff that i thought guys should have. And i have NEVER met a guy like him....in the sense that he fails to do alot of stuff that i expect. ALL....and i mean ALL my guy frens will do stuff like...offer to carry bags.....foot the bill.....send the girl home.....help the girl buy food........take the lead......and let the girls follow them instead of following behind the girl.....and offer treat most of the time.......oh ya......and not be "geh gao".....Sighz....seems like it's either i have a skewed impression of guys....or he is an exception. I always get treated by guys like dat...that's why i realli expect that from him as well....but i didn't get that. Sigh........i realli wonder....what am i doing with this guy man........maybe i should just move on.....sighzzzz..... Came up with a list of essential qualities in a guy 1. Must be gentlemanly....who will take care of the girl 2. Must offer to foot the bill...then wait for girl to offer to pay 3. Must carry bags for girl 4. Must offer to see girl home.....or else ask girl to call him when she reach home...or call her to make sure she is home 5. Must take the lead....at least offer suggestions..... 6. Need to give a sense of security 7. Need to keep composure 8. Cannot be "geh gao" 9. Must offer to buy food for girl....or order for the girl.... 10. Must be able to start some interesting or intellectual conversations 11. Treat the girl at times 12. Must see the girl home...especially when it's a date He said his last girlfren complained he didnt see her home. And alot of times he din wanna drive cos he dun wanna see her home...pengzzzz when i heard dat man. He also said that he wud try to go to places which are more accessible by mrt or bus in order not to see her home. When i heard this ar.........i was thinking "what kinda guys is this man??????". Sighz....yeah...it's true. The more i talk about this....the more i wonder what am i doing with this guy man........sighzz. And dat's why i didnt expect him to see me home either. Also....what guy will get a girl to HELP him buy things and not pay her back???? I mean....the girl's HELPING you buy and not buying FOR you.....at least offer to pay......and if she refuse...then it's fine...if not...then pay her back. He always seem to take things for granted.....and i always help him buy things without getting paid back. People help buy things because they wanna help..not becos they wanna treat alright. Sometimes...people might need the money...and if u dun pay them back that time...they might not buy for u the next time round lo. Piangz...this kinda things dun need me to say one right. And whenever he HELP me buy something....i will ALWAYS offer to pay back lo. Unless he bought it for me without me asking one....and it was him who wanted to buy...not me. Though he never take my money most of the time....but at least i offered lo. Sighzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. My guy frens ALWAYS offer to pay me back one....i might take...n i might refuse. YX does...matt does...jared does....rubin does.....ZM does too. Sigh.....everyone does lo. No wonder YX said he still got a lot to learn from YX in terms of being a gentleman. At that point....i thought he was being chauvinistic....cos i compared YX to the rest of my guy frens...expecting "him" to be like my guy frens too. Little did i noe that i was waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy wrong man. Haha.......this happened to be an exception. That's why i always get pissed whenever we go out. Sighzzz........this made me think....are all these qualities essential in a guy? Since i'm already so used to it....and that all my guy frens have these qualities......i think the answer shud be yes. Dun think it's the money problem....cos i wud offer to pay everytime....unless the guy dun want....but it's in the way things are being done. There seems to be a HUGE problem in that........i think so.....cos i dun get what i expect....sorta making it hard for me to actually feel relaxed...happy.....worry-free...whenever i go out with him. I must always keep things in check...see whether we are going in the right direction....decide on the places to go...places to eat......and all. I wanna relax man......and be led around...for once..... Will always seek to be the little girl...and one to be taken care of.....whenever i go out with someone....but it seems like that cannot be the case with him....i dun understand. But oh well.....if that is what it will be......then i realli dunno anymore...back to square one......whenever i think things are okay.....something will happen to screw things up.....and whenever i think things are screwed up......something happens to turn things round again. Sighzzz........this is going in circles....but time is ticking away.......think i have gotten to know more about this person since the last episode. Both good stuff and bad stuff... If only he is more gentlemanly...like YX...onli that YX overdoes it a little....but i wud rather he overdo it than underdo it. Really.....sighzzzzzzz........all the if onlys.....what if he can NEVER do it? Then i dunno....i guess i realli cannot handle that then....and will just have to let it go.... Tired....wanna sleep....slept alot yesterday......veri good....realli looking forward to my rest day tomorrow!! And my ktv session on thursday! Hee.....going mambo tomorrow too...so exciting...finally i'm having a life now. He's asking me about what i'm complaining on my blog right now...think he noes...cos i refuse to tell him about this...when i tell him about everything else......let him go wonder then. I think he will come ask me later la. But dun wanna talk to him abt this now...he has a paper tomorrow....see how la...it seems like everytime i wanna talk to him seriously i'm complaining to him about him....it seems rather cruel huh. I realli dun wanna do it....but i cant help it when it is a huge problem...at least in my point of view. Wonder if i'm being petty...or asking too much.......sighhhhhhhzzzzzzz......... will go reflect on my own expections and actions....mian bi si guo....haha......but now...i realli dun think i am expecting too much leh...only the basic qualities lo...those that my other guy frens have that he doesnt........well..................reflection time for now.... went to look for ger's pressie yesterday...spent a goddamn long time at the stupid perfume shop hor. Couldnt make up my mind......aLMOST for the davidoff cool water....then i read today on ur blog saying that u r getting sick of it...haha. Then how now.....some choices i considered include kenzo leau par....veri nice....u go try.....and anna sui dolly....and my ralph lauren...and j lo still......ralph lauren blue also quite nice leh by the way..... and lancome's miracle too......was even thinking of getting a couple of minatures instead....cos i cudnt make up my mind....but then decided against it too...cos not too worth it ma. If u realli sick of it liao better tell me hor...of the davidoff thingy......then i definitely will not buy it. Look for something else instead. Okiez......that's all for now........... |
| allie ♥ 6:56 PM |
| Saturday, May 01, 2004 |
*~...fEeLiN: tIrEd...~*
yay...........it's all oveerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....so glad......but then.....didnt do well at all for my last two papers...so screwed up...cos no mood to study in the end....sigh...but nevermind,....it's history now....one should look forward....especially when it comes to FUN!! hee....first thing i did was to went to shop.....haha....went to jennyfer.....and saw soooooooooo many things that i liked! Bought two tops in the end.....though i didnt have money...i managed to convince myself that that was my reward for alllllll my hard work during the exams when i didnt buy ANY clothes at all. Haha....happy happy. After that...home sweeeeeeeeet home.....but didnt stay long enuff before zapping back to hall to move all my books back home. Sigh.....reach home...sleep...and before i know it...its already 830 in the morning. Didnt sleep whole thursday night....trying to pia my GE....so i totally concussed yesterday night.....no trouble at all with sleeping...unlike the previous week when i cant sleep even when i tried very hard to. Oh well...guess that's what pure fatigue can do to u.... Came back from work today.....bad bad things happened. Well...think the job is basically very fun...cos u see all kinds of people...though i was realli struggling to communicate with this japanese and another korean...haha...very funny....cant seem to understand each other. But the thing is....i hate retail for one reason....people always seem to undercut one another...sigh....yan was putting in a lot of effort trying to get a customer to buy the perfumes....can see from the length of time she spent on that PartiCUlar customer....but the senior just came....and stole her customer...just like dat....riGHT under her nose somemore....and along with all the suppossed commission or sales. I had this Korean woman too....who almost bought the perfume from me...until another woman came along and took it away....with her well spoken Korean. Oh well........i was unhappy....but i wasnt so pissed....cos i heard of many such stories from my MUM....cos it seems to be quite prevalent in that company. Complained to her.......and she said "oh well....it's always the case". I agree......sigh.....the working world....don't realli like it....especially sales......cos it's always an unscrupulous job....in the sense that u have to get people to buy things that they dun want or dun realli like....and have to do it at the expense of others too....cold cold world of retail. On the surface...it seems to nice...warm...pleassant...cos everyone is so friendly and helpful and attentive..but underneath.....hmm......i guess u shud noe better...... Thursday.....he finished paper.....went to the movies with YX and piggy.....i went to take an hr;s nap before embarking on my pia-ing plan. YX called me at 8...totally woke me up from my precious sleep la....and asked me whether i wanna watch!! Liewzzz......i got two papers on friday lo......and i just told him to go n die....haha...a bit mean i noe....but it realli got on my nerves. Now i finished my paper....and he shud be pia-ing for his last paper....i can have the last laugh...hiakz. Dun noe why...but i kinda missed him on thursday....hmmmmm...wonder what it means....i have no idea......cos he went home....so i just wanted to concentrate on my pia-ing....who knows....the next thing i noe....i heard a knock on my door.....well....it turned out to be him. And apparently, my exam welfare system is working on that day tooo....haha...this time...i got chocolate cream puffs...those yummy ones that he bought before. Hee....but refused to eat so much cos it was realli late and it would realli make me grow FAT man... He stayed for quite abit.....made me unable to study...cos he kept talking....before going back..... Told me ke came back to pei wo for a while.....hmmmm....so sweet....kinda glad that he did actually.....cos i was feeling so bored n down n irritated from the movie episode..... realli dunno whats gonna happen next....and i dunno what i want to happen next. But since it is after the exams already...i guess i shud start thinking about it. 10 days of work......next up on my schedule o after-exam activities. doesnt sound very exciting does it. Oh well....i'm sure i'm going to schedule something else during the ten days.....AFTER i go my well-deserced rest first....i'm going to sleeeeeeeeeeeep like a log manz.....haha. The next thing on my mind...is definitely KTV liao.... By the way...ger ar....remember i said i wanna treat u to fondue at haagen daz? When u free u tell me ya....den we go haagen daz! haha..... currently waiting for mummy to bring me out to dinner....already told her to buy me LOTSSSS of girly glamour Christian dior stuff from Korea....she said she will if she sees them.... i hope she does! Cos i absolutely lurrrrrrrrrrve that range! Oh ya....and today at DFS....saw sooooooooooooo many types of perfume!!! And i am soooooooo tempted to buy all of them!! I like Dolly from Anna Sui...Ralph Lauren Blue...Pleasure by Estee Lauder....Miracle by Lancome......Dior 1947.....Kenzo's Leau Parfum....the new Dunhill men's fragrance....Ralph Lauren Glamourous....J Lo's Still......oh well....so many........lurrve them all. Sigh.........i think i need a wish list.....to keep all in mind.....at this rate.......my pay's gonna be gone in no time..... aniway....lurrrve being in the midst of all these scents...haha...today....i had ralph lauren on my neck...dolly on my left wrist....ralph lauren BLUE on my right....plus Dior 1947 on my fingers!! Haha.....wowee...so fun...... Though i din sell much today...h0pe tomorrow will be better la? But seriously....i dun realli care...cos i dun expect to work there longer than 10 days.......hee....but then again...it might save me the hassle of looking for another job. Oh well...see what happens then.....though i realli would like a permanent part time job from now on....... |
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